One Touch

 

One Touch
(Written 11.8.2023 - 02.11.2023)

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Ain't It Strange?
When One Enjoys
Another Suffers
Life Is Strange
Life Is So Strange
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Yes
"I Am Blind"

Is that what you want?
***Open-Minded Understanding***

Is that what you need?
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Love To Feel
Really
Really
Really Strong
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You Very Well Know You'll Do
*Whatever You'll Choose To Do*
But Princess
I Just Want You To Know
*I Will Be Devoted All To You*

Let us both always believe
"We Are Doing Just Fine"
But...
Anyway...
If She'll ever end up
Intoxicated by opportunity
Feeling dreamy
Compelled to
Charm and disarm
Drip and fall asleep
Knackered

Could you ever reassure me
If you'd try really hard?

...Can you please teach me
How to live with it?
How to not look behind

Maybe...
You would hint
To me afterwards
When you come back home
'Who Am I - Really To You'
'What You Want Me To Do'
Or something else...
...You'd be spinning on your mind

I don't know

Sorry...
...
I Simply Wander Hypothetically
'As If It Almost May Be True'

Right there
While soothing me
With your lovely eyes
Would you feel at least
A bit of...
Repentance - inside?

Would You?

Oh - Will You?

Oh...
It's Too Late
Suggestive Gesticulations
And Sounds
Hurt Me So Gently
Too Badly
Now

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There Is 'No Help'
This Huge Unknown
Is Driving Me Crazy
For Too Long
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Clearly
I Deserved It
And I Am So Sorry
For What I Did
I Really Am
But...
Will You Please Ever Forgive Me?
Will You??
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...
...
Can't you read
All What's Occupying My Mind?

In all sincerity
I doubt anything good
Can ever come
From listening
And succumbing
To a song
Which openly celebrates...
'Desensitization toward
Debauchery and filth'
While at the same time
Ridicules and kills true love
Not before...
Not later...
But deliberately on
Saint Valentine's Day

Could you agree with me?

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Tell me...
Honestly
What do you think...

Could we not seriously impair
Or even worse
Lose our Ability
For Pure Bonding
With Our Soulmate
Due to - too much foolin' around?

Or could those who play around
Who are living it steamy 'yolo'
For whatever their reasons
Might be - 'Positive or negative'
Perhaps still achieve
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Sacred Pure Bond
With Someone Special?
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Equally or...
Maybe even...
More successfully
Than those chaste?

And Why
And How...
And Why...
And How...
Do Tell me...
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...
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Have You Ever Daydreamed
Of Being *Everything* To Someone?
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Certain things you say and do
Concern and sadden my heart
Through and through
Thus alas - I sit and ponder
In disbelief
But...
I don't blame you
How could I?

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I can only be
Who 'I' want to be

You can only be
Who 'You' want to be
***

We alone decide
How we exist
And treat each other

Who We Are
Comes From The Inside

You did it so
Politely
Profoundly
Bitter - Sweet
Almost lessening my guilt
Making your point
It Aches So Gently But So Deeply
Oh So So Deeply
...
...
Not trying to excuse me in any way
But...

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Did You Really Not Feel It...
Back Then?
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The First Time Ever
I Saw
'Your Carefree Smiling Face'
Which Would Easily
Outshine All The Wembley Lights
And 'Oh Those Legs'

I flew away...
Like Daft

'For the fear
(?)
***...That I - Mustn't...***
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...
...
'Stupid fears'
Should be absolutely off-limits
I know
But Honesty Always
Seemed Crucial
To Naive Me
...
...
After giving it much of a thought
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***Only Now I'm Beginning
To Understand***
***
Heavenly Plans
Must Have Brought You
For Me To Notice You
***That Day***
After All The Pain And Suffering
I Had To Go Through

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All My Life Paths And Signs
Have Led Me
'Like Desperately Thirsty
To The Undying Well'
- Straight To You -
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And Then...
After I Fleeted Away...
From The Sweetest First Sight
Of Perfection

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Quite Some Time Later
You Started Your Cry
So Crystal
With A Voice
Simply Irresistible
To My Body And Mind
Across The Whole Universe
You Touched Straight Into My Soul
I Swear!
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With Gentlest
Yet
Most Determined Eyes
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And...
You Roared...
And Yearned...

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'You Are Coming'

'Flying To Me' (!!!???)
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Why???
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((...Crying...))
Oh...
How Can That Be???
How Can't You See?
Why I'm Running So Scared
Feeling Eternally Unprepared

((...Crying...))
Oh My God...
This Simply Can't Be Normal
It Cannot Possibly Be!!!

Don't you get it?
This Is Better
Than I Have Ever Dreamed
Or Imagined

You Are So
Supernaturally Special
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***That Is How I Know***
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I just scare myself
To death

With...
Great White...
Great White... (??)
...
Fears
"What if..."
"What if..."
"What if..."

I know
You'd never
Intentionally do me
Intolerable harm

Would you?

You can tease me all you want
Be whatever you need to be
See whoever you itch to see
Chip me each time...
You arouse another
What can I say?

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If That's How It Has To Be
Let It Be
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Much Stronger This Is Than Me
I'd Hug You Anyways
I'll Hug You Always
You Shall Always Be
A Princess For Me

I Just Want To Reach You
Just Want To Feel You
For A Start

But At The Moment
I Am Somehow Again Fallin' Apart

And...
Wasn't That Precisely
Your Most Intimate Desire?
To See It Written All Over My Face
How Greatly It Wounded Me
How Fast Do I Bleed
How Much I Care

Or Are You Really Leaving?
Leaving...
:'(

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I Hope -
You Love This So

I Hope -
You Will Happily Sob Embracing It
Every Time You'll Have Any Doubts
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I Wish...
If There's Anything Wrong
You'd Want To Change
In Your Own Life
That You Change It
...Change It...
With My Help And Support
I Wish!
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I hope you'll see me
For who I really - truly am
Once Again

And what you are doing to me
Once Again

What You Are Doing To Me...

Greatest Chance Is...
Everything Here Is Just
As It Is Destined To Be
Every Our Escapade
***All Our Beetles***
All Our Tears
All Our Fears
***Each Of Our Threads***

I'm Aware It's Unbelievably Weird

So Hold Your Breath Now
Hold It!
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...
...

Because...
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The Truth Is
It Is Impossible
I Simply Can't Resist You
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It Won't Let Me!
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You Are So
Perfectly Gentle & Sweet

I Want You To Be Really Happy
I Really Do

But Greenie...
Could You Really Be Happy
While I'll Be Losing My Mind
Restlessly Waiting For Your Return?

I dunno

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...Can We Compromise?
Or You'll Test My Limits Again?
Is Your Love Easygoing?
Or You Enjoy It More
When I'm In Pain?
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'Even Though We Both Know
Your Course Might Not Be Right'
I Cannot But Cherish You
'Even If Something Else
Really Makes You So Peachy'
I Cannot But Forgive You
Because I Care
I Care...
I Care...
I Care...
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Inexperienced
Could assume
"Criminally too low"
But - is it
Is it really?
Have they ever experienced
'The Thing Called Life'?

Can we ever teach another
'How To Cry'
Or
'How To Love'?

Only You Can Try
To Influence Her
On Your Side


It's Always Similar
Nothing Is Completely New
Under The Stars
We Are All Troubled
By Our Own Demons

But People Can Change...
People Can Learn...
And Unlearn...

Strange Paintings
Can Disappear
From The Walls
And mind

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I'll Endure
Build Love Up
You'll Intuit
Everything Happening In Me
***You'll Distinguish The Two***
***Unmistakably***
Each Time
You'll Immerse
Into My Ocean
Little Deeper
Anew
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You see...
Life Is Full Of Us
Balancers On The Wires
Like Circus Is
Up High
In The Sky
Hop
Hop - hop
Freestyle
Anystyle

Trust Me
I'll Be Strictly My Own Judge Now
From The Place
Where 'I'm' Standing

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Why Would I
Lie Down
With Anyone Else

After The Fantastic Strawberry Day?
After All Of This?

How Could I Now
Do That To You?
Or To Myself?

It Would Break Me Irreparably

It Just Wouldn't Make Any Sense
Any Sense At All
Not To Me

This Is How I Feel
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I Can't Be Sure About You
All I Know Is
You Feel It Your Own Way

Struggling With A Pole Or Not
With My Heart Secretly Hidden
In Your Shallow Back Pocket

I Know You Don't Want To
Deep Down
You Are Reliable
So Kind
You Don't Mean...
To Lose The Balance
Playful As A Child
As You Are
But I'm So Afraid
So So Afraid

Under Excessive Temptations
Away And Solo
'You'll All Absorbed Drop My Heart'
'From Heavens'
Each Time You'll Give In
Impulsively Come Undone
And Have Too Much Fun

You'll Forget All About Me

Again
And Again
And Again
...
They Won't Ever Leave You Alone
Because You Are Too Hot
You Are Too Hot
You Are Waaay Too Hot!
Like...
Volcanic Hot!!!

That's What Terrifies Me!
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...
...

Oh I'm Begging You...
Convince Me I Am Exaggerating

I'm Such A Fool

I Know...
"I Must Be Making An Elephant
Out Of The Fly"

Yesterday...
My Im Im Imagination Was On The Moon
Today Already Heading To Mars (?)

It Makes No Sense
To Doubt
What Universe
Has Connected Together

So Why Am I Dead Worried?
Why Can't I Sleep Now?

Could You Not At Least
Somehow
Promise
You'll Vigorously Resist
But Even If You'll Have To Surrender
...
Could You Not Promise Me
Once
That We'll Still Be Okay
No Matter What

That You Will Always Keep It Safe...
(?)

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The Heart...
Greenie
The Heart!
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This Is So Crazy

Oh...
Just...
Do Something!
Ease My Agony

This Is Killing Me!
It's Killing Me!!

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My Dearest
***
I Cannot Explain To You
This Flaming Feeling
Growing Constantly Bigger And Bigger
Consuming Me Entirely
For So Long...

Strangest I've Ever Had
In My Whole Life

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This Love Is - Unconditional
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Yes
"I Am Blind"
Because You Are
So Precious To Me

I Can't Lose You
If You Won't Lose Me

I'm All Batty
Flapping Around
Fretting Over
'Where Do You Sleep?'
'Are You Safe?'
'Will Anything Bad Happen
To The Yummy One
I Can't Live Without?'
...

Now Look...
What You Have Done!!!???

You Left Me
In Dark Blue
In Wondering 'What Is True?'

'Maybe After All
You Really
Shouldn't Have Done That?'

'Maybe You Misunderstood'
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How Should've I Felt
With so many
Each One Beautiful In It's Own Way
But Me
Not Knowing
In Which One - Is It?
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Seemingly
Uncertainty Gave Your Body
An Excuse

Alcohol & Company
Never helps you either

But Hasn't Soul
Always Knew
The Truth?

You can try to escape it
A thousand times

You can try to shun it
For a ten thousand times

Where Else Do We Belong?
To Whom Else Then Do We Belong?
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...
..
Wait...!
Is Your Heart
By Any Chance
Already Unstoppably Bursting!?
Is This...

Is This...
What You Were Always
For As Long As You Can Remember
Secretly Lusting For!?
'A Clues
Of An Inevitable Man'

To Whom Only You
Can Bring Comfort
One You Could Move To Tears
Keep Him Almost Warm
Warm By The Fire

Made Only For Each Other
...
...
Ah...
Incomprehensible
From Their Pasts
Still
Stays
Oh my my...
Oh my my...
...
...
...
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...Someone Who Will Suffer
For As Long As It Takes

Like A Dog Chained
Left In The Cold And Rain

Even If You Can't Help It...
Even If You Stumble...
Even If It's Just The Way You Are
The One To Lick
All Your Scars & Wounds

Is that Submission or Love?
Weakness or Strength?
Madness or Kindness?
Rushing through my veins

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Someone Who Shall
Wait And Wait
And Wait...
And Wait...
Just For You
To Helplessly Let Them
Finally Escape
Filled With
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The Most Precious
Of This World
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And Drop Them
Straight Into His Kneeling Eyes
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***That Is All I Need!!!***
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The Sweetest
Most Honest
Bond

Like Dip With 'D'
***Sacred***
That's All I Ever Wanted

Is It You?
Do You Seek The Same?

Do You Want Us
To Tame Our Monsters Together?

Am I Hoping For Impossible?

Am I Ruining Everything?

I know...
You Don't Owe Me Anything
You Can Easily Disappear
Act Like It Didn't Happen

It's just...

I Feel I'm In Love
Like I've Never Ever Loved
Anyone Before (!?)

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This Warmth!
This Sheer Madness!!!
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Like...
***SpellBound*** (!?)

This Is How I Feel!
This Is How I Feel!
This Is How I Feel!

Oh...
I Want You Sooo Much
I'm Dying For Your...

***One Touch***
<3

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After long pause...
11 Repetitions
Towards The Sleep State...
Each more and more quiet whispers...
'Til fade
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Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
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Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
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Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
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Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
***
Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
***
Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
***
Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
***
Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
***
Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
***
Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
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Baby...
Won't You
Dream Away With Me?
Holding Me Close
Just The Two Of Us
Forever
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Alen Islamovic - "Slijepac"

Depeche Mode - "In Chains"

Sladjana Milosevic & Dado Topic - "Princeza"

Simply Red - "You Make Me Feel Brand New" (Official Video)

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Alcohol, drugs & substances won't help you...
Please avoid them at all costs
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!!! MAGIC SONG !!!
THIS SONG / TEXT NEEDS MORE TIME!
For extra polishing!
Possibly some changes too!
It really isn't easy to get it all
To the perfect point
Since it is a big one!

This took me sooo many hours! :O

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I dedicate it Right Here for my
'Unfortunately already gone' (lol) Virgo Birthday
As my little gift to you! :')
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Huh...

It is simply another try...
After too many tries...
It connects also bits & pieces
Of older thoughts in my head
And in my writings...
Which Are Crucial!

(This text down - in between ///// was written
On 11th of August - but today this song is waay, waaay better!)

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I think:
"This is very good!?" :')

Who knows...
What I'll think tomorrow
Or the day after, though...
But...
Since now it is 11th... :')

Oh I really Love It...now...
It strikes right in the Middle!
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PS.
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Art and feelings
Can't be pushed or forced...
So...do not try!
It takes time for it and
***Time Has To Be Ripe!***
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Even though I haven't had a clue
About what you'll say...
Did you see how Gore & I
In my previous work - nailed it
To the last tiny bit?
Did you see that???

That's because Sneaky Maestro
Has a 'secret wire'
Over which he 'listens'
All Other Rocknrollas...
(Shhh!!! Ter 'Ce' Spot!!!)

How else do you think
He could ever be
*Nonstop at the very top*
Of all key Rock events!?
:D

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And for the end of this Fireworks...

Speaking of brave women...
I find this very inspiring

Hm...
It seems as if I've already seen this
Sometime before... (??)

Like...
Universe prepares me for years
And years and years already... For...?
Something Big?

Annie Oakley Quote:
"I ain't afraid to love a man.
I ain't afraid to shoot him either"
https://www.azquotes.com/quote/705927

...Just to be fire sure! :))
You did not hear this wisdom from me!
Okay!? Okaay!!??
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