Eternal Love

Eternal Love

(written: 29.7.2022 - 13.9.2022)



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How come...

Eyes are attracted to the Beauty

Yet...

Personality always wins the Heart?

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Multiple Connected Stories


For full understanding

Best read all


Have in mind

This was a huge, sensitive...

And extremely exhausting work


After you read all

Should you reach any

Bad or negative conclusions

You are on the wrong path


Read many times

Until you get it



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BELIEVE IN LOVE


If a boy likes a crazy girl

It is because he is crazy too


Banished!?

Blocked!?

Why!?


When a Girl banishes you

For writing her

A most beautiful song

'Zeleni Skarabej'

For really caring for her and all Then you know you are Doomed! :'(


This really hurts...

I didn't want to hurt you!

I'm Really Sorry!

Why would I cry so many times

I've seen your face if this was

All a game?

Don't you know

Love

Always finds it's way!?


You were mostly silent...

Saying almost nothing...

Except symbols & clues

No emails

Nothing

And why?

Didn't you wanted it to happen?

I was in a state of mind

I'd sell anything and come to you

I know it's crazy but

I just wanted to be close to you...

It was stronger than me! :'(

I needed You!

So why do you blame me?

I just want to know

Are you with me or not?


What I didn't say?

What I didn't do?

I got this 'Bloody Virus'

On 18th of July...

I'm still coughing

Wouldn't you want me...

To feel better?

Maybe you can just cut me off

And hate me

But I can't do that to you!

Babe, I can't let you go!

I don't know how to do it!


Your whole appearance is like a Heaven to me!

It simply Is!

I'm Sorry! :)

I can't see you too often

Because you make me cry (haha)

That means...

You Are Too Beautiful

Somehow

To me


Perhaps I should've lied about it?


I have no idea how is this possible!?

Oh...

What is this...?


It's not that in this world

There are no girls

Super beautiful or kind


But it says...

Everything in you & on you

Because of some...

Very Strange Reason

Vibrates Like Synchronized

With my mind

And I can't help it...


You or something in you

Are doing it!

It is definitely not normal!

Green Scarabs were visiting me!

All the time

For God's Sake!!!


We would just talk

Or hug

Or


I would kiss your soles

For as long...as it takes...

And if that's all you'd ever want...

I'd enjoy just that, the same!

I know you'd feel it even more so... That way - anyway!


I would cherish your finger tips

Once hiding your strawberry mouth

Do you know why?

Can You Guess Why? :)


Are you really so scared

Of little bit of Feelings?


Or would you maybe

Rather want me

To just suffer

And dream about you?


Is No Love better than

Distant Love...?


You can hate me

And I will Love you all the same...


In fact I will now Love you more Because your acts are telling me

You are afraid of Love!

What if I weigh him down?

What if I suffocate him?

What if I wouldn't like him?

Why is he doing this to me?

We are too far away?

Even my sister says no...

To distant lovers!

Look, even Maddy thinks it hurts!?

Oh no!

What if this or...

What if that?

...Oh yes!

I know -

I'll reject him, that must do it!?


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Do you love to Panic? ;-)

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Take It Easy

There is no rush

Take It Easy

We are not going to the...

Execution by firing squad


My Wish Is Not A Condemnation


If I don't deserve it

Then I won't deserve it


Can't you Feel I simply Care...

I simply blindly Care...

Who knows if it ends up...

All in rain?

Or under the sun?

I'm Giving My All Into It...


Shouldn't you first try to read

All I've written

And understand it

Before you jump to 'Any...'?

(Any, any?) ;-)


So eager to get rid of me

But why?

I said I'm not going anywhere

Why You Just Won't Believe?

Why are you pushing me so hard

From yourself?


Okay - Hear

I'm telling You...

You can easily forget me

Why not!?

Act like you don't know me

Negate about what you wrote them

Hate me

Despise me

Hurt me

Ridicule me

Reject me

Forbid yourself to think about me

You can Hide yourself

And Really Believe That

You Can Escape It


You simply Forget me

&

Ignore me

If that's what you want


But I...

I on the other hand

I Will Silently Care For You More

My Love Will Always Find You


I understand my foreign feelings Might be...

Slow

Cheap

Distant

Broken

Stupid

Naive

Not Enough

Or whatever

But...

One is Certain

My Love Will Always Find You

Because it is...


Real (?)


And that's it


And no...

It won't be pushy nor needy


Why would anyone constrain you?

You may grow in all directions

Like a fave plant

But are you not secretly dreaming

Just like me

Of someone you can count on?


You just try as hard as you can

To Hide your Heart from Love

I'm sure you can do it!


Love Will Always Find You

I already told you that, before


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You see...

And This Is So Important!

I Really, Really Believe In Love

Since Little One

She showed me

Or something surrounding her?

Even Death Means Nothing

To Love!!!

That Changed My Limited Mind Forever!

And I Will Always Believe!!!

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So...Just You Hide!


I'm sure you can resist it

And make a heap of great excuses

Better be Safe


Uhhh...

And really...

...

...

I do understand

Please Pardon

My clumsy wordiness


I see - you are very emotional

You don't want to be hurt

That's it


I'm crying with you...

Now...

Your tears are my tears

Believe me


Oh Your Silvery

Teary Sad Eyes

I can't see them :'(

I Can't!


Do whatever you want to do

That is your decision


But I...

I will be there for You


I choose Love


You've done something for me

In your Heart - you know what

And I felt it

You touched me

You did that!

For me!


Nothing you do now

Will ever change what you've done

For me!


And I wonder about that

Fade into You

For so Long!

Yes or No...?

Why...?

When...?? :O

Into Whom...?

It is so important to me to know!


Two Hearts can make

Anything happen

If they wish

Can't they?


It seems like you care

But you hide it

That is why

I Will Care For You Too


And I will try to redeem every tear

If you let me


And if all of this makes me weak

In gender games, as they say...

So called:

"Experts for Relationships"

So be it...

You can think of me as weak


But

***I Will Still Love You More***


Time always shows what matters

If not before

Then, late in our lives


Don't you know that

The key in a hole

Apparently it could mean:


'My home is your home

You are welcome'


At least that's nice explanation...

I've found! At first!


It Made Me Sooo Happy :')


Don't you know?


Have I not found the excellent one?


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But you cried?

And I smiled?

Huh...

Who of us two is more Crazy, now?

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I'm so happy to meet you!

I don't know about you

But this made 'me' so happy!


So please...

Send me an email

And simply ask

And then you'll have it

Don't be like a child

Where is the problem?

Who will ever know

Apart from You

And me

You Silly!? :)


And isn't all of it

Really Magical?

Isn't it?

No one truly knows

What tomorrow brings

But I will enjoy the Good

For many, so many years to come

And so should you

So will you

No matter what happens

Yeah - it would be great

If only

If only

If only

But no one usually knows anything

About the next second

Let alone about

'If only'


Use it

Or Lose it

What can I say?


We are - as we are

So...


Isn't this all still Love?

...

To enjoy


I know it is


And...can you blame me?

Can you blame me...?

'Cause I now just want

To write you a song

So Beautiful :)


To Trick you

To Touch you

To Charm you

To Love you

So Deeply

So Gently

That one day

You'll simply Cryingly fall in Love

With me

Like if it's the

First and

Only

And

The Last time

Can you blame me?


And if you still won't care for me

Or like me or...

Then be it

What can I do?


But I will think of You!

Always hoping...

That you are Kind


And...

Are you?

Will you be?

Could you be?

(For me?)


So

Forget me if you want

Call it an Ending


Likewise

If ever you will want to

Gift me something for real

If it crosses your mind

For Real


I want something Special

I want The Real Thing

I need that - first and the most

What you won't ever

Capture on a photo

Not directly

That is what I want for keeps

I need it so badly...


So...

Just you hide

Behind your

Indistinguishable Marvels

Use anything to drive me

Round and around

To punish me

To make me wonder...

What it is


And will you ever let me know?

Is it tiny?

Is it something precious?

God!

I've lost Hours

Hours!

Looking at it lol

Just you grin!


I know it's important


Is it...

Oh I know...

A Comet?

Or a Portal!?


No...it can't be...

...

Or something...


This is not a fair play!

I just want you to know


I have no idea

Ahhh

I see...

You just want to

Drive me crazy


How many years

You plan

To Torture Me?


If you'll ever slip down

In Love with me

Truly

You know...

'Like falling on ice'...

For real...

Will you reveal to me what it is?

Only to me!?

Please!? :)


So yeah

I will remember You

I will need You

No matter what you do


Hurt my feelings more

If you must

Hurt me because it's not your day

Hurt me for all those who hurt you

Or just like that

For Fun


But I want to see it all


And the smaller 'secret'

Beside the Unknown


The stretch mark

Under your left arm


And The Subtle Cross


I know I'm too curious


Hm...

Maybe Destiny has really

Sent you

To a wrong guy!? :D

Maybe you still can say "bye bye"?

...

...

...

Or are you doing it all

For someone else?


Now I really don't know...

Anymore


Too many Mirrors make my mind

Unstable


Why do I see Her in your Mirror?

It's so tough...

It isn't funny!

:(

Just because she is gone

It doesn't mean she is not here


And why did you do it?

And then I mentioned it?

Without knowing about you at all

Why?


It is so Strange!?

Don't you find

That meeting point

Strange?

Supernatural?

I can't comprehend it all!


This is such a Torture!!!

So beautiful-sad-hard


You know...

There are so many of them

Why - why - why?

Words can't explain it

Can they?

What should I think of it??


For whom was it all meant, then?


Just keep doing it

Drive me crazy

Hide

Whatever makes you happy


And what have I expected?

For a Chick like that

Just to surrender?

Hmm...


Surely you can have a plenty of

Bad guys instead


Should I feel very jealous...

Worrying about the worst?


You are so hard to get

I bet you'd want lucky one

To really sweat for you...


This is so crazy!

You are stuck in my mind...


So...

Whatever you need to do

Do...


Don't you worry about me

I'll keep on Dreaming...

Hoping...

Loving...


So what if I'll cry in my Dreams?

Do you even care?

If I need you

And you are simply

Not Even There!


I don't know for whom you are born

Or whom do you really want

Maybe you are talking

To a wrong guy?


Hm...

But could then

Someone else

Like me - maybe...

Make you

Somehow somewhat happy?

'Could I help you do it better?'

Better than you yourself

Playing The Game Alone...

Ever thought about that?

No?



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Tell me...


What's the Name

Of this

Painful-Sweet Addiction

One Heart to Another?


When your whole being

Needs so much

That your body aches

And your eyes cry

For what came down

Directly From The Sky


Is it a terrible sin if

A man just wants to hold you?

Wants just to breathe you in?


What harm exists here

In his warm words

To shut your eyes

So firmly - so easily?


What purpose lives there

In your hoping songs

If he can't see

What is under your skin?


Tell me

And I will know


Let me in...

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And if you're curious

Wouldn't you want to see me

Crying & Pining for you??

Wouldn't you want?

To see me?

Just a Tiny peek

At least in my dreams!?

So Sneak into my nights...

Come On In and...

See me!

Watch me!


Feel me!


Maybe you'll find this

Maybe not


I guess not?


You must be thinking

About some really bad boy

Who doesn't give a damn

Neither 'bout you

Neither about any other girl...

He's playin' with

That must be it (?)

Yeah

"An Expert"

Cheap psychology of our lives

Again and again


Maybe you haven't read my song...

If only you could Really Feel

How Special It Is...

Aaah...


Man must reach really deep

Into The Well

To lift it up right

It isn't easy

It takes so much time


Should I translate it?

Rewrite it in English even better?


Maybe you thought...

Maybe I misinterpreted...

I don't know...

...

...

Anymore...


I have no idea!

About anything...

I know nothing!

Ahhh


(Is it?)

(For whom?)


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### 2.###

FRIEND IN NEED

UNDER SKY VISION


Huh uh...

I must admit, astonishingly..

Life is surprisingly again

One bit easier

Thanks to a new friend now

...


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'Aisling'

...

...

Just in Time!?

Or what?

Or how?

Oh...

Someone who simply - Cares


Imagine...

Big Eyes Of Kindness

Watching over you

Vision Speaking In Favor

From The Grave

Or Somewhere Unknown

Through Space And Time

Within a pair of Surprised Eyes

In so many Rock songs

Keeping you Safe

Whenever you stumble


One leading to another

It alignes

It grows

Your hairs go

Up up up up

How do you Feel?

What do you Feel?

Can you hold them

Can your eyes hold them back?


How big is it?

How powerful is...

'That Something'?

When you look around

Questioning the Senses


And...

The Windy Voice

In a distance

In your head

Starts...


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Who do you want To Be?

What is it you want To Change?

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Whom do you want To Save?

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Uhhh...


Greet

Bless

And Love

The Vision of a Beloved One

Love leads to Love


<3

At the Heart of Creation

Incomprehensible

Unimaginable

Impossible

Powers Decide

What is Possible

What is to be

<3


*Accidents Become Mercies

*Wishes Come True

*Wounds Heal

*Protected Become Protectors


Universe Remembers Everything

There Is Always A Hope

Good Deeds Multiply

When Great Multitudes

Come By

And Ally


Culmination Before Beginning


Love every bone

Broken ones twice as much


Greet

Bless

And Love

The Vision


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...

I'm gonna hug my friend super tight

When I see her


In fact I could turn her upside down


If she's clothed well...

Obviously...


Hey I'm not trying

Anything bad here - am I?


Her spine positioned towards me

'Could hug her legs instead

How hard it can be?


Why?

Hm...

Well, just because...


She Makes Me Happy!?

Isn't That Enough Of A Reason?


Ain't that obvious

To hug her then like that?

It is probably a bit too Cheerful

For a first hug, though!?

:D


I know She's a True Blessing!

Because...

"Friend in need is a friend indeed"

And that - Life has taught me...

Is Very Rare


Logically

How could she understand it all?

I doubt she can

Even so...

She's just being there!

Caring!

Believe it or not

So Gentle hmmm...

It strikes my fancy

And it makes me

Wonder


'How is this possible!?'


I really can't help but Feel

The Protection

By Otherworldly Forces!


Out of where...

Does it all comes from???

Hm...

...

...

So...

Thanks!

You are absolutely right about

Two way street

I knew that but Thank You

For reminding me... :)

...

...

...

Let me just ask you...

If the two of us

Some day in the future

Shall become

A very good friends


Would you mind

Always protecting me

From all the bad girls?

And any other misfortunes?


Your woman instinct & intuition

Would help me so much

And if none would pass your radar

If you'd be against some

Or...

If you'd be too afraid to lose me

Then you should tell me

And I'd consider it

And I would try my best

Not to hurt your feelings

Wouldn't I?

After all...

By then you should be my Bestie


It is all attached to a

Baloon escaped

From a willage fair

Wandering freely in the air...

Our destination is a wild guess

I know...

But...

I'm just day dreaming...

Would you mind

Whenever anything would bother us To bond even closer together?


When hugging...

If I accidently start to

Inapropriately kiss

Your beautiful body

Because...Let's say...

A month ago my girlfriend

Has announced to me

Out of the blue

"She doesn't love me anymore"

And she has dumped me cruelly

For whichever...

Her reason might have been

And I was so devastated

Therefore my life

Has lost it's previous meaning

So...


Could you please be...

So kind to stop me

Before we would ruin something


Without being hurt

Even if you like it a bit

And hug me super tight

And whisper from your very Heart

Something like...

"I will never leave you"?


Would you mind if I would do...

Similar for you?


That way we could always protect

Each other from being hurt

And be super close Friends...


Would you mind to be Super Close?

Safe From Pain...

If we would take a nap

Or sleep together

When anything has been hurting us

Legs joining legs

Fingers on our hands

Safely intertwined

Or our arms holding one another

So tightly

'Round our bodies

Always there for each other?

No matter what!

Would you mind?


I'm just wondering...

If it could happen

Would you mind?


Oh Would You Mind??

...

...

...

Uh...

Sorry...

My head is so Full of Thoughts

I'm simply trying

Not to hurt anybody

And to explain to myself

"What am I to do now?"


I'm simply sensing

I could perhaps trust you (?)


And if you are pretty normal

I want you near


It is quite that easy

Or hard (!?)

...

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LIKE TWO FLAMES

OF THE SAME


I want to know you better

That is certain

But you know...

I can't see her cry...

I really can't see her being sad...

:(


I don't mind if she's a bit of crazy

Or moody

If you would see her crying...

You'd think the same as me

"Oh how can I console her?"


I'm not sure if she cares about me

But I care about her a lot


You know how the story goes...

Once a Fool...


The Foolish Heart

Can't be taught

There is no remedy


I removed some parts here

Because it could raise

All the eyebrows

It is so intense!


I like to observe & plan farther

Into the Future


Yeah, I am a bit of unhinged

Caring almost blindly...

And too soon


I think she's shy and afraid

Or something...


She is so emotional


She is an...

Emotional Little Ball Of Craziness

Imagine the cutest 'Something'

And then double it!

Yeah...

That's about it! :')


We all have our own peculiarities

What can we do?


...

...

Am I allowed to feel strangely...

Now...?


It means to me a lot

When People Stand By Me...

When I need someone

When it is Crucial


I never forget them!


Friends or Love

Are Known and best Measured

In Need...

In Bad Times...

Through Thin...


Usually the Naive think

Careless lustful feelings...

Equals Love


But Love is something

So much more

Or even different


Maybe I really am a Fringe Dweller

Or to become one

Lol (!?)


And, my friend...

If any of these will make you

Sad, angry, weird or I dunno...

Jealous...

Please don't...

I want...

Just want you near...


Because I feel you are great!

Little helper

Princess In White Super Sweet :)


She broods

Maybe she's too good for me

And that made my

Palms so sweaty-eager

"Ain't fair - ain't right

Want her more"

Is this Little Tease plain crazy

Or just another

"I'll keep him on a short leash

He'll be my mind dish"

Can't she reckon

She can tickle & ghost me...

All she wants

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But even if an 'accident' happens

If there is any chance whatsoever

I'll be back to Pay Her In Kind?

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Can't she see that?

:D


There must be

A 'Great Green Reason'

For me not having the power

To resist her

I just can't

She can break my heart

She can torture me

Or be too sweet

It's all the same

I just can't


I wish if I could hold you

Just wrap around with you

But realy firmly

You dressed all in Green

It could be really

Something Special

Or even Mystical

Unseen

I'd love that sooo much


And if she could see it

Then maybe she would understand

How Childish She Is (?)

How Safe I Am (?)


Not that I want us to rush

Into anywhere

No no no


I'm by no means perfect

As no one in fact is

But I didn't decided it

She came to me


And you could make everything ok

Just by being there

I sense you would

Yeah


...

Am I sounding awful?


Oh Sorry...

It is not my intention...

To vex anyone...


I don't want to put anyone down

Certainly not you

It's just...


I just miss her so...

I hope she could see that scene

Truly jump into it like a Siren

Dive into that picture

Like in her favourite Sea

With all of her deep breath

And miss me one bit too


It's such a extraordinary feeling

Wanting

Pining

For the First


She would experience it strikingly

I might be wrong, yet still...

I imagine she would hold her pillow

In the night

So close

Digging her small fingers into it

Clasping it almost hopelessly

Caressing it

Smooching it

Whispering 'she's sorry'

Ohhh

(?)

...


Poor Little Thing :')

What can I do to make her

Feel better..?


I just want

Just want

I Just Want!

...

...

...

..Us To Become Closer

Bit by bit

Day by day

Am I hoping for too much?


Other 'Moths' are all mostly Great

They Really Are!

As much as I know


Of course we all have problems

Of our own

Never mind that...


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All Good People Are Beautiful

In Their Own Way

They Really Are

***


But it is just that little difference

She Made Me Cry

And I want to discover 'Why?'

I'm not guilty of anything horrid

Am I?


Am I?


Am I?


She can have any bad guy

This can cost her - my life

You know?

Everything has it's 'cracking point'

So do I


What's worst...

I'm not sure if she would care...

Or even know...


My Mind Is Again Whirling

Ohhh this is too fu*kin' hard!!!

...

...

...

...

On the other side...

...


I want 'you' close

If you are Good

I want you for my Friend

No matter what

And if you get angry

Or whatever bad or good emotion

Overcomes you

I want to hold you in my arms

Until you're safe and calm

Or be with you on the phone


Just to point you one - two small things

If I may?

I wonder if you could

Possibly smile...

Little more often? :)

Just a Tiny...


And two...

Throw the cigarettes

If you are a true smoker

That's simply a poison...

Very bad habit...

You really don't need

Been there - done that... ;-)

I'll help you with the "how"

Just ask me

Just sayin'


And I will keep you super close

If we ever progress to that...

I hope so


But without hurting her!

I won't hurt her

I mustn't

She can hurt me

She can say no to me

I won't do it to her!

No, no...

Never

I won't be the one to blame


She's too sweet for tears

If you'd see her crying

You would plead and say...

Probably the same as me:


"My Lord...

Please, let me cry instead of her"


It looks Laughable - but it is True!


So...

Without pain!

I'm being serious...

No one will cry!

And why would you?


Yeah

We people are jealous

Afraid and so on

Everyone has it's own limitations


I want you both close!

And I want you happy both

I hope this isn't a sin?


And if she wants or needs...

To hurt me

Just because I like her

Or if she really thinks...

She's too good...

For me

Or if she would say...

She doesn't need me anymore

Even if she would do it...

Only to please her ego

What can I do?

I can wait in Blue

And hope she'll feel it

One day - hopefully soon

What 'she' has done to us

And 'why'?

...

...

...

Yes - these monologues are like

An Introspection

So to speak

...

...

So again - if something...

If anything...

Will ever bother you

Whatever that is...

You just tell me!

Promise?


I know you could keep me safe!

You just want to be xxxxxx with me

And that thought alone

Brought you closer


I'm not even yet unwrapped it!

What all it means


I simply must think more

About your words

Don't I?


I am slow

I'm enjoying slowly...


...

...

She conquered my eyes

I'm busted through and through


I know...

This will sound funny at least...

Or even very touchy

But...

If it happens one day...

After 'wrestling' with her

After making her fly high

Like an Angel

After being so meltingly close

Oh...

My imagination is so vivid


I still cannot understand why but

This moment I think...

Next day

Or at least next time I see you...

I would really want

To hold 'you' for hours

And tickle you

Be there for you


I know...

I know...

Such a Strange...

Uncontrollable

Irresistible Feeling (!?)


Oh...

Is there something wrong

With me?


You would simply feel so safe

Feeling so good

Because I know you'd sense how

I'm so Happy

You'd feel my happiness

And enjoy my arms so much

And I should then...

Kiss your forehead :)

To see if you'll have any reaction

Because let us be honest

This Life Is Crazy

Not everything we feel

Can be explained easily

When even I don't understand it

How others could?


Sorry...

It is so Intriguing

In my mind


Someone's Polite Words

Like birds

Want to settle down

Safe in their little haven


Hope we get to it...

You could be my Bestie forever


If you can...

If you are truly Kind...

Promise to yourself right here

That you'll be!? :)


It sounds strange

It is strange

I can't explain it!?

Sure it's important to do so

But how?


I ponder...

Is it a guilt or something?

I think I'd want to hold you so much

So you won't feel...

Neglected at all...

Or less worthy...

Or jealous...

Or afraid that you'll lose me...

Or Lonely...

I know you are sensitive


Just show me

What you need

And I will do my best

Okay?


Am I making any sense?


Feeling is so

Indescribable

It might seem Faulty

But is it?

Is it?


And she won't be scared or angry

Because she'll know

That I'm crazy about both

And crazy in any other way lol

A bit of a hopeless case

Just in a good way

But loyal and honest

So she'll be so happy too :)


And then

When I would see her again

I'm afraid even to think about it

How eager she could be

Just to touch me

Again

Sparky


It seems when you

Sometimes miss

Your beloved

You better appreciate those

Loving moments

Spent together


I can't stop thinking

About Her

Or You


Can I be in love with her madly?

And be so close with you?

Please someone tell me...

That I can


She will tease me

To make herself irresistible

I will want her like crazy

She'll chant to be absolutely mine


You will spoil me

To show me how much you care

I will hold you so tightly

I'll be forever there for you


Could it be?


Ohh...

I feel so weird

This is so crazy isn't it?


What Am I Talking About LOL?


I'm so idealistic

In my dizzy mind


And does anyone ever wonder

Who made me feel that way?

Where's The Source?

...

...

...


But hey!! :D

You know what!?

Now I just remembered...

Out of The Deepest Blue


Wow!

Really now!?

I didn't think about this For Ages!


When I was a kiddo - you know!?

I was in fact sleeping


Please forgive me...

I forgot how many times exactly :D


...With two hot much older babes

Boy my Boy...

Oh...

They were 'of age' you know

While I was - not

I kid you not!

I didn't harm them!

I swear! LOL

Never couldn't quite remember

No matter how hard I tried

What they had done to me

Tough LOL

(Shhh you Fool!)

...

'M'...

Please!

Behave yourself! :O

Again I can see that look

In my mind eye

Keep your mouth closed

Your vampire teeth

Are rapidly glrowing!

Lol


Picture...

Two beds connected

So imagine how superb

...Was in between them

Like a sardine...in a hot pan...


Sorry!

I mean...in a tin can! :D

Wow that was a super experience

Very fond memories

(Much more back then)


Can you imagine???

Blessed between women

How they say...

"The more the merrier"!? LoL


So I guess maybe...


See how great it is

I remembered it just now!?


Maybe...

...maybe...

They've really spoiled me

Like 'spoiled brat'

Or something...?

I never really thought

About that influence

And their impact on my life

Until now!?


Hey!

I'm just sayin'

Don't get some instant Fishy ideas!


No! ...

...

How dare you!?

...They were not like that!!!


Don't be Naughty!!! LOL

No - No!

...

...

...

Oh this was such a Fairy Tale

To story tell

Today not even I wouldn't know

To believe it or not

I know

I get you lol

...

...

...


And now my friend...


She wonders

If she is 'maybe too good for me' ?


Am I not good enough for her?

At least...

To see her?

To kiss her fingers?

To give her a present?

To carry her in my heart?

Am I not?


I must say such thoughts

In her head

When I'm lying in my bed

Don't let me breathe


"Maybe too good for you"

God - How - This - Burns

Constantly

Inexplicably


I never thought

'She' would play

Like a Child

Bitter-Sweet

Hide-and-seek

With me


It reminds me of a very old film

Sleeping Dwarf

Who has lost all of his

Hope and Will

Slowly fading - disappearing

Into a Forest floor

Until someone comes

And disturbs him

Once more


What is she thinking

That I should just 'not worry'

If she is somewhere

Kissing or...'loving' (!?)

Some guy

Thinking in fact - about me???


Imaginary

One night bloody stand

Hanging on my mind

Feels like a knife with huge teeth

Stabbing me to the side

While she's looking me

So gently - lovingly in the eyes


Is she really enjoying my pain?

What is this - A Tragedy!?

Maybe my pain is helping her

I dunno?


How about no communication

From her side

And Why?

Why?


Am I poisonous?


Some days I think

I am talking to her

While

She is talking to God knows whom

Some other lad

Could this be...The Truth?

And...

The Craziest Story Of My Life (!?)


This girl is driving me nuts!

Am I not hard enough...

I mean - strong?


Now you can see

Why you are also

So important to me

I never know what can I expect

Of her

She's super hot to me

Yet she doesn't let me

Get any closer

But she makes me want her more

And more and more and more... :O


I mean...

What is this?

A Funny Love Spell (!?)

Is Little One once again...

Making fun of me!? :D

Is that it?? :O


I hope that no one

Will resent my words

But...


I'm

Totally...

Absolutely

Electrified

Spellbound

And

Bedazzled


Spending my nights

Rolling on The Edge

Arms in Search of a Body

Sleeping Mind Wanting


Oh...

It is so Ridiculously Energizing


***

How can you loose

The Love Arrow at

Someone's Heart

Wound him shyly

Sneakily

So he cannot be sure

Who's hiding...

Laughing so adorably

Behind the trees

And then tease all of his senses

Without a Mercy forevermore?

And expect of him - what?

That he will simply forget it?

Ignore you?

That he won't dream of you two...

Hand in hand?

***


Should I Scream?

Should I Scream!?


You can't talk about these matters

With just anyone - My Friend

You know?


See...that is I guess

Why I want to hold you right now

In my arms

To counterbalance

All of this influx

This...

Helplessness


Let's hope I would not bruise you

With my handprints

Too much


You must be careful

Should warn me

And struggle against

If I unknowingly get carried away


Supercharged

Overcharged

What is she doin' to me???


You could tell me - I expect

Few smart words

Without jumping before the cart

Without calling me names

Without making any...

Bad conclusions

Or wrong judgments

Could You?

Or you could just hold me too

Without a word

Next to your Beautiful Heart


You aren't pushy

No


I could probably even now bet

You are so kind

You would not want

Not deliberately

To hurt her

Or me

Very sensible of you

That's why I will never know

How to thank you enough


I'm not joking...

I know it sounds crazy but

You could even help her

Even she could help you too

It blows my mind!!!

And if both will be close to me

It should be obvious

That we'll look carefully

How not to hurt each other

And that should be pretty easy


Am I saying too much? :O


Because you see...

I really don't know what to think


I have no idea

Should I Laugh

Or Should I Cry

Or probably Both (!?)

Now


And I'm not even mentioning

Everything


Like for example

A girl the other day

Blue eyed and young

I was just blabbing

Psychology, relationships and more

We were not alone

Not sitting too close

No one was flirting

And I can't truly

Pin point the moment

When she has started to twirl

Her beautiful long hair

And smile

It was nothing!

Just a speck of curiosity most likely

But it was transmiting

For a few seconds or maybe

Even longer

I only occasionally looked her way

I certainly didn't stare...

Like Electricity...

In the air

Subconsciously of course


Life is filled with funny moments

When people around you are good

And simply Enjoy their time

...

...

...

I'm afraid My Friend

That she will hurt me more

I think boys in the past

Had disappointed her

Or something

Or she hadn't had them

Which certainly isn't a flaw

If it is true


Smart people are drawn to a

Pristine meadows

For a reason


I feel and I might be wrong

That she secretly wants me to

Really Suffer Badly

For Her Touch


My eyes go up and behind

On such an idea


Because it is so Cold!


But then again

Her skimpy defenses are not

Impenetrable

Aren't they?


She can only try to find

Another & Better 'me' lol

Good luck with that, really...


My old friend had once

Found a man looking

'Just like me'

In his eyes

'The man was me'

He scared him on the

Railway station's bench lol

"Oh come on, get up...

What are you pretending..."

He was absolutely the same as me

But only thing different

He Was Not Me lol

Friend was so embarrassed later

Apologizing to the poor sod...

He told me

...

Maybe friend was drunk?

Such A Fool! :D

I almost died laughing when he

Tried to explain it to me

LMAOF


So you see...

And now I'm talking to you...

My Sweet Runner

(Pinching your both cheeks :D )


Sorry Girl, I'm really Scarce - too...

'Can't touch this'

(Tap - tap on them)

;-)


By the way

If that wasn't crazy enough...

My dad

Told me about week ago

Absolutely non invitingly


"You are an Alien"


And I looked at him

In awe and confusion...

"Where from...

Is he crazy or what?"


I don't believe

He had ever in the past said

Such a statement to me (!?)


But I then thought to myself...

Something on these lines

"Oh I see...

If I really am...lol

That's in fact

An excellent information!

Because...

I Know - Just The Girl"

:D

...

...

Oh you make me so Warm

What if you'd try to delight me?

How could I ever do you a

Slightest harm?

When I see them

'Great White'...Choppers

My mind rings the red alarm lol


What am I gonna do with you?

What will you do to me?

Are You Safe?

Are you safe like me?

Can I trust you??


Would you rather

Kiss me

Or

Miss me?

Or

Cross me?


I assume you want to break me

But I don't understand exactly why

(???)


It hurts but I

Don't mind the pain

When I know it is for you

Do you like it when it hurts me...

Too?


Wanna hurt me...

Really really badly?

To prove something?

To feel better?

To make me pay?

To make me Want You Insufferably?

Please hurt me

If I'm guilty for being too far away

Also for whichever other reason

You might think of

Go on - help your day


I want you to feel better

It's painful so much more

If you are not well


Oh I like it so slow...

I might have been too hasty

Wasn't I?

My mistake


For better connection

I should've paid better attention

When you said that you want a toy

Only in your free time - boy


I know you're busy at times

I just wanted little bit more of you

Heart to Heart

I didn't want you to run away

I'll bribe you generously just to stay


I know it must've sounded bad

Whatever it was what hurt you

But you'll understand

When you read it all

Til' the end

I'm Sure

Then you'll have

A good laugh with yourself

Maybe!?

...

...

I'm asking myself

...

If you would push me way too far

And really smash my heart

Like Glass

To pieces

Would you feel sorry?

Would you be unimaginably tender?

Would my tears become yours?

How would you heal me?


Then again...

I wonder would my friend try

To heal me and how


Would my tender friend show me

How a woman can care for a man?

When he is shattered and down


I suspect she'd try gently

With Vodka

Old remedies are often...

One of the best

But who knows?

Who knows?


...

...

xxxxxxxxxxx

Mandatory Stop Here

This is a pausing part

Pour or Refill your drinks

Best is yet to come!!! :D

xxxxxxxxxxx

...

...

...

Thank You My Friend

For putting up

With my puberty shenanigans

I feel worse than a 15 y.o. lol

Will send you munch of

Positive Vibrations &

Wishes In Whispers

I appreciate whatever Good

You've done

Or will do

For me

I Really Do

...

...

...

And you

My Sweety...

I seek that emotion

When I first saw it In Your Eyes

I'll bleed for that...

'Mildness with a pinch of Determination'

In your expression


Hurt me as much as you need

Break my heart into shards!

Do whatever you want

I don't mind

Life is rarely easy

I want to deserve it

So show me

How can I deserve it?


***

...

...

...

..

Either that way or the smart way


If you prefer when you get tired

Of running from me

I can let you go...

So you can 'win' & escape!?

You can then - chase after me!?

;-)


Almost like Rodney and the Thug

And Delboy with his suitcase

Chasin' in the streets

Ya know that scene? :D


Would you like to chase after me?

NO!!!???

Hey why are you breathing...

So heavenly?

Can't Those Exquisite Thighs...

Run Any Faster!?

LOL


I always imagined

You must be at least

One part from Highlands?

But now I'm not so sure


Nah'

No - no I'm turnin' the other way


Let me tell Ya what's the matter...


I'll reach you and grab you

And then you will resent it!


Finding me flaws

"You are a man"

"You wasn't fair"

"My legs hurt badly"

You'll moan...and complain...

Finding thousands of examples

Nagging aloud


Then I'll have

A Lifetime of Problems!?


Why would we want that???


Try to be honest...

Which story to you sounds better

To tell to the people:


A) Giggly & Faster

"Ohh I started it

But he was so

Persistent afterwards

I stood no chance

I had to go for him" :D


Or


B) Proud & Slower

"My beautiful Darling Angel

Made our dream come true

Almost all by herself

And that is why we are here" :)


2 samples - 20 words each, only :)

Never mind the exact words!

You get my point


No...

You started the chase

Join the Moths and Snatch me!

:P :P

If You Can (!?) LOL


My Torch Light is on

And off and on

And off

And on

And...off

And...

Still off lol

...

Waaait!

You can't see me?

Are you sure you can't see me?

'No?' ->Yes


Good...

Very good

lol

...

...

***

Oh it is a bit of troubling

When I think about it

I can imagine you'll try

Some dirty tricks

To try to cheat me

To beat me

I'll think about them

When I sleep

Turnin' & tossin' n' searchin'

I'll come up

With a better strategy I promise


'Kiss your both middle finger tips'

I swear! :D


Fortunately...

I guess...

My friend will protect me

She's a bit of Dangerous

If I got her right

Just about the right measure ;-)


I don't mind...

...

Who doesn't prefer it

When women

Are also protective

Of their men...

...Or male friends?

;-)

...

Suppose I could just kiss her once

In a slow motion

Really Loudly

On her cheek

So that every part of her body

Would sense it

And whisper to her ear

"Don't sleep"

To keep her highly awake

In dark hours

For a better

'Moth is approaching' alertness

Yes...

I think that will make her

Really Eager


I like it

I like her

A lot

...

...

Sorry Runner - I luv to use

A bit of leverage or help

Whenever I can

:P

I always play totally fair though

In Love and War

...

...

Now...

Imagine The Happiness!!!

If you could be so fast to grab me


"Gotchya!!!"


Your...

Heart beating like crazy

Sweat drippin' everywhere

Tears like in a cartoon

Spraying & flying all around lol


Maybe it could really happen!?

...

...

I'm not quite sure in reality

But...possibly...

...

...

In Your Dreams???

(lol)


Gotchya! :'D

(Mwah!)

...

...

...


...

Just a small notice:

Some people might

Severely misunderstood

Being emotional or good

For being weak

Or even worse - spineless (haha)

I think of myself as good

But trust me

Deliberately disrespect me N times

Lie to me

Disappoint me

Or try to do me

A serious harm

And then you'll know

Who is weak lol...


I can then just forget you

Why to bother with an idiot at all?

I need good people in my life

If you try to manipulate me

In a really bad or evil way

You won't succeed

You'll hurt yourself instead

And for your own sake

Better do not try


How B&C has once taught me

"I replace you like a sock"

(So I did)

Now she can cheer to tears

Or even to piss

And annoy

Some other poor bloke

I wish them all

All the luck

They surely need it

LMAOF :D


I always strive...

And has of lately even more...

Committed myself not to hurt

That's the way to go!

...

...

...

Oh! :O

Hopefully I won't need to use

My brain too much

This much

Too soon

I hope

This is too tough!

Really!


Please do not take any of this as...

Too edgy

Will you?


Do have in mind that...

In fact...

I'm at the moment ridiculously

Emotionally Highly Intoxicated

Standing on a Seat

On a Huge Carousel...

Capacity I think

About 1001 people...

Circling at full speed

Round and Round

But my body is flying

Almost in a

Horizontal position

100 metres above the Ground

Wooohooo!

Few rounds of laughs

Few rounds of sobbing

On and on

But also important

This crazy machine also changes

The spin direction

Every now and then

It seems - at random times (!?)

LoL


So have that in consideration

Please...


Before you judge me...

Harshly

And throw rotten tomatoes at me

Or do something nastier


...

...


Since this was a story about You Two - predominantly


I'm sending you Two

One Warmest Hug to each


And one nose kiss for You

My Runner


And one forehead kiss for You...

My Friend


You Deserved It, Both <3

:)


I don't want anyone to be offended Do I?


There you Go

I like you Both


Only Time will show

Who will like me

:)


And that's your problem

Not mine ;-)

...

...

...

...

### 4. ###

MOON OVER ME


Now Something Really Interesting


Folks...


Does anyone of you believe

In...

The Importance Of

The Symbolism?


No?


Because...

Old Big Moon was So Indicative

From my Point of Reference

On 10th of August 2022

In the late evening / dusk...


Do notice that was almost

11-th day of the Month!

(Numerology)


(Full Sturgeon Moon was

12th of August - 03:36 am)


Picture it from top to the bottom!

-Clouds covering the Moon top

-One perfect yellow horizontal stripe

-One perfect cloud horizontal stripe

-Yellow Moon at the bottom


I know it meant...

Something Smashing!

I'll try to put it on a paper

Both stripes were thick and:

Perfectly full yellow

Perfectly full darker (night) cloud

And of the same thickness!

All 4 areas of approximately...

Similar thickness


Say - What (!?)

:)


***

***

And The Meaning Of It Is...?


Someone please help me

With the meaning!

***

***


Unfortunately...

I didn't carry the phone with me...


I was very very surprised

When I saw it!


...

...

And on 12th of August

When I've noticed something else

Very important to me

Not Moon or Clouds this time

Which I could maybe link

Perhaps to explain a little more

The Moon with 2 stripes / lines...

I am now even more surprised!?

Huh...

This is like...

Like almost definitely Otherworldly!

Or something very very weird!

Hm...


I am not sure if the two

Could be related...


Nevertheless

One person

Which is I dare to say

Intuitive & Smart

And also possibly connected

To some 'strange' Force (!?)

Has already many weeks before

Revealed additional facts

Or a...

Possibility of a tie!?

Those go along with all of this

Strange, indeed...


Imagine:

Four coincidences

From 4 different sources! :O

Or even more of them...

Connected By Meaning

Pointing In The Same

Or Similar Direction!

Hm...


I know how this sounds


"Here we go again...

He's again reading

'In between lines'

Something Abstract

You simply cannot prove..."


Believe me...

I know...

...

...

There are so many areas

If one is only interested:

Miracle of Love

Law of attraction

Power of belief

Power of intention

Karma

Reincarnation

Cause & Effect

Synchronicities

Synchromysticism

Symbolism

Numerology

...Etc


When

Weird Coincidences

Or God-Incidences

Or Synchronicities

Start To Build Up

You simply can't say

You do not see them

If you are aware of them

If they Exist

So Clearly & Obviously

Presenting Themselves

At The Right Time

To You!


Can You!?


Like Ripples On The Reality Surface


Or even gentle...

Universe's Nudges ;-)


Sure some would exclaim:

"Patterns and coincidences

Are everywhere

To be found"


And there's no doubt about that

But I believe that explanations

Are not that simple

Sometimes!


The last few years

Have seriously changed my opinion

About 'Impossible'


I must admit such

'I do not believe my senses'

- Moments

Frighten me and Excite me

In so many ways


Let us simply conclude

That 'Intelligence'

Or 'Collective Consciousness'...

Or even God's Presence

However we want to call it

Is certainly everywhere

Around us...

And in us...

And It Communicates


Every bit of information

Is knowledge!

For us to understand

And implement


All is interconnected & entwined

Although such conclusion

Should be a 'pure logic'


Could it be we people

Oftentimes take many things

Hidden in plain sight

For granted and dismiss them

Even though some are

Or Could Be

In truth

Important and valid for us?


***

Although I've investigated

It much more than this

I still want to hear about

The Moon & Clouds...

Connected symbolism

So please let me know

Avia & Co.

Or any other smarties

Thnx :)

...

...

...

...

### 5. ###

LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING


People...

Please, please, please...

Read texts / songs

For what they really are

And not for feeding

And justifying your fears


**Warnings and similar

Are obviously something

One bit different


***Straight Closed Polyamory

I've simply mentioned

Before anything...

As a Highly Hypothetical & Idealistically Imagined situation

To Matilda

It was just to clarify my point

About something else to her

She'll understand...

I hope so

I didn't meant it then

Not consciously

As a suggestion, either

I gave it simply as an example


Clearly, usually...

Even 'one on one' love

Is challenging enough

I've just put a man into a Hypothetical Situation

It can be any man...

Or any woman...


But then again I wonder

What if such situation happens...?

I'm thinking serious - Polyamory (Polygamy, Polyandry)

But straight, normal & natural...

Men-woman or

Women-man

Of course it sounds crazy at first But Life throws

Unimaginable events at us...


Sorry

I'm not being selfish or greedy

Or anything bad...

Please...

W.A.I.T

Just wait...

Let me explain myself...

I for example have a peculiar spot

For loneliness, suffering

And I just wonder...

If - for example...

Few kind women would ever

Really fall in love with me

If they would feel

That they need 'me'

And so on...

In around the same time...etc...


It would break me in pieces

If I'd have to choose


Do you know what I mean?

To disrespect or hurt someone

Just like that

If all are Kind, lonely, friendly etc

To lose someone, just because...


Sure everyone can choose

One person

Which is let us say one bit 'better'

In that 'dot in time', to us...


But the word 'competition'...

Could be unfitting


That's like saying...


"You deserve my love

You do not"


Or


"You are good

You are not"


And so on...


To me it sounds very...

Yeah...

But of course...

*Thanks Little Actress* ;-)

It sounds very...

'Discriminating'

...speaking in general...


It sounds Ugly & Cold


Of course there are repercussions

Two bladed sword

I know you can accuse me now

Of being partial

Or

Assuming wrongly I'm just

Attempting to...

'Drive the water on my mill'

There are too many combinations

Of possible intricacies

And what not...

But let's leave that - on the side

For some time!

...

...

Imagine this situation

From only one angle

Where they all love 'you'!

I mean, what then?

What then?


And on the other hand of course...

How would they see it?


That is why I've said

"And Love for all"

Wasn't that obvious?

And by that I simply mean

Love...

Not Poly or anything


Simply...

LOVE


People deserve it

Life is Easier when you have

Someone who really cares


Someone who's

'On the similar page'

In the Book of Life


***

Love Changes Everything

***


When speaking about

'Serious' Polyamory

I'm not thinking about

Open

Free

No boundaries

Crazy sexual things...

That is simply nothing alike!


Love of course

It is not only about naked intimacy

Love is so much more

It is a Friendship after all!

Or even also before all!

It's caring

A commitment

A honest word

A promise

Being there when it's tough

...

At least for those who get

What Love is all about


The same can be said if

Few men would love one woman

It is a Real Dilemma

Because not all people have ever Thought about it

Or would ever do it...

But what if it happens???


Of course one on one...

Girl - boy Love is normal

Enough and so on...

No one denies that...

No one sane is against that!

Do I look to you like insane?


(Whaaat!?

...

How Dare You!?

LoL)


But what if it happens otherwise? :O

Do you really think you have

Anything much to say to what Universe decides to "throw at you"?


Like...

Sickness, injury, earthquake

Flood, death, love...??


I have had similar...

Not the same!

Fear for years...

From time to time

Quite Silly-Joking fear but...

It can become serious...


Of course I'm naturally

For normal love...

However...

Life can be

Much stranger than that...

Anything can happen!

And bet your life

Anything will happen!

Inevitable it is...


Please...

Don't look at me

With wrong idea now...

I Surrender - Hey!

Just You Stop Please!


Don't shoot me now!

Or throw stones at me!

I'm not promoting

Anything wrong here


Instead

Just imagine yourself

For a brief flash

In such a funny

But serious situation

Rather


And what would You do!?


Imagine loving one nice person

With few other nice people more and


Then...


Imagine yourself alone being loved by few nice people


Hm...


Particularly if you are an Empath?

Or also a lonely person and so on...

Ha!?

It is more than...

A very tricky situation!

Isn't it?


Don't get me wrong...

***

This isn't meant At All as a...

Silent suggestion to anyone!

***


I'm only thinking in broad sense

What if it "simply" happens?

By Chance!?

Or Coincidence

By Higher Force

Not On A Deliberate Purpose

And so on...


For me...

I guess I would may-be

Be able

To do it

But only under Ideal terms

That means

Full respect

No jealousy

Loyalty

And all the rest as it goes

But this is from

Normal life viewpoint - I guess Almost impossible to achieve...?

So this can happen in a Hypothetical Theory

But in Practice

It would be much harder...


But for some I guess

It is still viable!?

Because some are living it

Around the Globe...

Hm...Blimey!?


To have a little comparison...

Similar is if you have few kids...

Of your own and you prefer some And neglect some...

It is wrong!

You should ideally share

Love, time & resources equally


Same would be in an unusual

Multi - relationship

Built on healthy fundaments


And Family or a Relationship

Should be lead only as:

"One for all and all for one"

Which in general obviously

Does not

Translate into

Everyone making love to everyone


Don't hate me now!

Don't look at me...

With big worried eyes!

Don't!

Don't!

Don't!

Don't imagine me in a Harem

Chicks feeding me grapes

Or even the other combination

Oh nooooo!!!

LOL

I'm just thinking about

So many things in my life

That my head aches! LOL

Does That Means...

I'm Not Very Boooring?


"Viking" Princess I Beg You!!!

Help me!!!

Use Your Bow!

Save me from them!

I don't want to be captured

In a Harem

Being held locked in a golden cage As a Trophy

By a group of

Vicious Hungry Chicks!

LOL


If you save me...

I'm all Yours!? :)


I mean...

How can I defend myself From...

I'm a bloody hopeless case

Can't even defend myself lol...

These lonesome sweets are

Like blood thirsty mosquitoes

They are not losing time! :D


...

...

...

### 6. ###

SHINE YOUR LOVE

TIL' THE LAST BREATH


People...

Jokes aside...

Now Seriously...

Please Do Notice...


I'm Only Trying My Very Best

I imagine some of you

Find it great

And so on...

And some perhaps

Find themselves offended...

But again...

Trust me...

I'm only doing my best...

This isn't to say I can't be better


Some are so

Silent...

Polite...

Gentle...

Shy...

Waiting patiently...

In the corner...

They are speaking no words

Yet their doings & aura

'Speaks instead':


"Please look at me...

Look at me

I'm alone

I want you

I need you"

Huh...

Sweet as Honey...

People are just lonely

Maybe even ill or

Having a hard time

They want attention, love, touch

These hurt you the most!

I feel You too...now...

For sure - this time (?)

And what should I say now?

What can I do?

Can I just Open My Heart?

Please?

<3


So...

I Appreciate All Of You

Can't imagine how else

I could ever say this

I want to make you all Happy

As much as I can!

Anyway I can!

Is that a sin?

Is that not enough?


Am I greedy or selfish

Or what am I

For doing so

I do not know


Please

You judge me alone - for yourself


I never make a game

Out of emotions

Not in a bad way, whatsoever

I do take it seriously

Maybe even...

Too seriously sometimes

God knows

It has costed me in the past


But I can always see myself

In the Mirror


I'm not, "you know"...

It's just...

I just feel...


And I Know...

I Need To Thank Everyone

I must show Respect

*I Need To Protect*

I can't be rude


***

There's a reason for everything

That's why it is happening

***


Some will maybe try to abuse it


To some it could feel wrong

Well, for that matter

Maybe even to me

On some days...

It seems weird...


But again...

I remember myself

I'm Really Just Trying

So Hard To Do

What's 'Hopefully The Best'

In this very moment

In a rather 'special' situation

The Universe will decide the Rest

That's how it always is!


And no, it is not easy for me!

Of course it isn't!

But then again

I'm no regular guy - am I?


***

***

The Bottom Line Is:

I Know I'm being So Blessed

And it makes me very Humble

Protective & Thankful

To all

Grateful

But also - Responsible For It

Because we all have Expectations

And so on...

So if I non-deliberate

Sadden anyone - I'm Really Sorry

But At The Core Of It All

Is

LOVE

<3

***

***


Otherwise, how else could I ever explain it? :O


A Conspiracy against me?

Believe me, I've thought even that! LOL


I mean...

I could be rude to some

And good to some?

How would that look, then?


If you are Kind I better treat you the same?


If you are

Lonely

Sad

Misunderstood...

Should I just tell you...

"Get the fu*k out of here!"?

Or should I ignore some

Even if I have somehow

Only now learned about them?

Of course not

I love to do something about it

If I can

If it is about me!? ;-)


That's me...

That is me


And what will came out of it?

I have no faintest idea

I still can't see the Future!

Some say they see it, though

Can You? :O


If you can, please do let me know!

We'll play a Lottery!

And share our winnings! :)


So, we'll try our best and...see...


Not all are here...

For the same reasons

And so on...

I'm not stupid ya know?


I'm still loving Little One

And I Always Will

I still Grieve

We still Grieve

Does that give an answer

To any of...

Someone's Curious Questions?


And Mine Main

For That Person Are

*Do You Know...

Who You Are!?

*What or Who is

Inside of your body!?


Because of all

Only you worry me...

The more I see

The more I'm perplexed

I have no idea what to think of you!


You are cold - you know?

I don't want to sadden you

But I do notice such things

Obviously that is why

You came here

You want to admit it or not


What are you hiding deep inside...

From the rest of the world...

To not see?

Who hurt your Ego?

What is there to be 'fixed'?

Show It To Me

Piece by Piece


Maybe for you this is a game?

Maybe for your little gardener friend

Like breathing new life

Into old photographs


But not for me

Not for me

Not - for - me


Which watch?

What crab?

What stem?

And so on...


*Are you sure your breath

Is solely yours???


...

...

...

..

All of this is so...

Crazy

Crazy

Crazy


To cut the story...

To be able to finish this - ever!

...

...

...

In the end

I love people

Who love to help!


***

***

Aren't that one of the best

If not the best points of this life?

To Help...

And To Love

***

***


I Deliberately Shine It


And of course

It is not only about Empathy

I mean...

Business

Friendship

Love

Etc...?


You see...

If I ever decide and accomplish

To get rich

If Lady Luck Pats Me

On my shoulder for my Hard Work...

Most likely I will carry on

On similar general path

If it will be possible

Because it is

So Good In The End...

You know - Patch Adams

Sort of a thing?

Original and / or Film!?

Yeah!!!



### 7. ###

RELAXNATION


So now, my friends - you know?


Deep slow breaths...


Let your...

Overwhelming tensional

Confusion finally evaporate


Think!

Look left

Look right

Again!

Think!


Think!

Look all around you

Again!

Think!


Feel

Close Your Eyes

Feel!


LOL

...

...

...


This Show is almost about to End

Until the next Time!


Are you ready?

Ready to go?


Sad?


Do you still want...

Something more???

Oh my...

My...


If anyone is still...

Unsatisfied???

I'm gonna really s' s' spank you!!!

You can leave your fishnets

Or any other protective apparel on LoL

<3


This was Extremely Hard

And Exhausting

To play-write

And it glitters only One Part

Of how I see

The World Around Us...

For me nothing is set in stone...

Apart from crucial things...



Ups...

I'm so sorry I was ought

To give you this Warning

In the beginning!


Better later than earlier

LOL


***

THIS IS A VERY WEIRD SHOW

LOST SOULS CONGREGATE HERE

YOU BETTER DO NOT COME IN

IF YOU ARE HOT

***

...

...

...

..

Thank You and Sleep Loved

<3


When the night comes

And day leaves

Put something special on

Or

Lie down free

Free of all


Remove all distractions

Build an Atmosphere

Think about something

That makes you happy


Whatever positive

Occupies your mind

And brings a smile

To your lips and eyes


Imagine The Scenario

And 'fall' into It

Experience the emotions

Enjoy as much of your senses

As you can


Push your

Body & Mind

Heart & Soul

Into it


As you go deeper...

And deeper...

...

And deeper...

...

Allow yourself to have

The most beautiful dreams


There is no reason

Not to Reach It

In your Sleep

Tonight

Or

Any other night

Zz

Z



(The Curtain Is Closing)

...

...


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Depeche Mode - Higher Love

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/depechemode/higherlove.html

Enjoy...

By 'Maestro' Martin L Gore

Yea' I think that's it (!?)

-----------

James - All I'm Saying

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/james/allimsaying.html


- Do not disturb The Dead!

(With...Seances, Ouija Boards...)


Rather speak to them

From your Heart

Or in your Dreams

Etc

-----------

Djordje Balasevic -

Pesma o jednom petlu

https://genius.com/Djordje-balasevic-pesma-o-jednom-petlu-lyrics


A song about one cock (Rooster)


Search on his

Official Youtube channel

The original version


"I've had a terrific cock"

(No dirty allusions please!)


Lol...


If you by any chance

Adore chicks much

Which I really doubt


But if 'you do'

Or even 'not'

How Is It Possible

In This World

You've never heard of this

Small Masterpiece?


You can't understand a word...

About it - can you?

Can You???


Oh...

That Makes Me So...

So...

One part SAD

One part LMAOF :D


Babe if only you could understand!!!

But sadly...nope...hahaha


I'm only pretending

...

I don't loveya

At all

Ne - ver :p


Aj, Živjeli!

Cheers! :D


Bok!

Chau!




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Zillion of hours build into

It will be updated possibly...


I need to check Grammar...Etc...

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