Eternal Love
(written: 29.7.2022 - 13.9.2022)
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How come...
Eyes are attracted to the Beauty
Yet...
Personality always wins the Heart?
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Multiple Connected Stories
For full understanding
Best read all
Have in mind
This was a huge, sensitive...
And extremely exhausting work
After you read all
Should you reach any
Bad or negative conclusions
You are on the wrong path
Read many times
Until you get it
### 1. ###
BELIEVE IN LOVE
If a boy likes a crazy girl
It is because he is crazy too
Banished!?
Blocked!?
Why!?
When a Girl banishes you
For writing her
A most beautiful song
'Zeleni Skarabej'
For really caring for her and all Then you know you are Doomed! :'(
This really hurts...
I didn't want to hurt you!
I'm Really Sorry!
Why would I cry so many times
I've seen your face if this was
All a game?
Don't you know
Love
Always finds it's way!?
You were mostly silent...
Saying almost nothing...
Except symbols & clues
No emails
Nothing
And why?
Didn't you wanted it to happen?
I was in a state of mind
I'd sell anything and come to you
I know it's crazy but
I just wanted to be close to you...
It was stronger than me! :'(
I needed You!
So why do you blame me?
I just want to know
Are you with me or not?
What I didn't say?
What I didn't do?
I got this 'Bloody Virus'
On 18th of July...
I'm still coughing
Wouldn't you want me...
To feel better?
Maybe you can just cut me off
And hate me
But I can't do that to you!
Babe, I can't let you go!
I don't know how to do it!
Your whole appearance is like a Heaven to me!
It simply Is!
I'm Sorry! :)
I can't see you too often
Because you make me cry (haha)
That means...
You Are Too Beautiful
Somehow
To me
Perhaps I should've lied about it?
I have no idea how is this possible!?
Oh...
What is this...?
It's not that in this world
There are no girls
Super beautiful or kind
But it says...
Everything in you & on you
Because of some...
Very Strange Reason
Vibrates Like Synchronized
With my mind
And I can't help it...
You or something in you
Are doing it!
It is definitely not normal!
Green Scarabs were visiting me!
All the time
For God's Sake!!!
We would just talk
Or hug
Or
I would kiss your soles
For as long...as it takes...
And if that's all you'd ever want...
I'd enjoy just that, the same!
I know you'd feel it even more so... That way - anyway!
I would cherish your finger tips
Once hiding your strawberry mouth
Do you know why?
Can You Guess Why? :)
Are you really so scared
Of little bit of Feelings?
Or would you maybe
Rather want me
To just suffer
And dream about you?
Is No Love better than
Distant Love...?
You can hate me
And I will Love you all the same...
In fact I will now Love you more Because your acts are telling me
You are afraid of Love!
What if I weigh him down?
What if I suffocate him?
What if I wouldn't like him?
Why is he doing this to me?
We are too far away?
Even my sister says no...
To distant lovers!
Look, even Maddy thinks it hurts!?
Oh no!
What if this or...
What if that?
...Oh yes!
I know -
I'll reject him, that must do it!?
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Do you love to Panic? ;-)
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Take It Easy
There is no rush
Take It Easy
We are not going to the...
Execution by firing squad
My Wish Is Not A Condemnation
If I don't deserve it
Then I won't deserve it
Can't you Feel I simply Care...
I simply blindly Care...
Who knows if it ends up...
All in rain?
Or under the sun?
I'm Giving My All Into It...
Shouldn't you first try to read
All I've written
And understand it
Before you jump to 'Any...'?
(Any, any?) ;-)
So eager to get rid of me
But why?
I said I'm not going anywhere
Why You Just Won't Believe?
Why are you pushing me so hard
From yourself?
Okay - Hear
I'm telling You...
You can easily forget me
Why not!?
Act like you don't know me
Negate about what you wrote them
Hate me
Despise me
Hurt me
Ridicule me
Reject me
Forbid yourself to think about me
You can Hide yourself
And Really Believe That
You Can Escape It
You simply Forget me
&
Ignore me
If that's what you want
But I...
I on the other hand
I Will Silently Care For You More
My Love Will Always Find You
I understand my foreign feelings Might be...
Slow
Cheap
Distant
Broken
Stupid
Naive
Not Enough
Or whatever
But...
One is Certain
My Love Will Always Find You
Because it is...
Real (?)
And that's it
And no...
It won't be pushy nor needy
Why would anyone constrain you?
You may grow in all directions
Like a fave plant
But are you not secretly dreaming
Just like me
Of someone you can count on?
You just try as hard as you can
To Hide your Heart from Love
I'm sure you can do it!
Love Will Always Find You
I already told you that, before
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You see...
And This Is So Important!
I Really, Really Believe In Love
Since Little One
She showed me
Or something surrounding her?
Even Death Means Nothing
To Love!!!
That Changed My Limited Mind Forever!
And I Will Always Believe!!!
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So...Just You Hide!
I'm sure you can resist it
And make a heap of great excuses
Better be Safe
Uhhh...
And really...
...
...
I do understand
Please Pardon
My clumsy wordiness
I see - you are very emotional
You don't want to be hurt
That's it
I'm crying with you...
Now...
Your tears are my tears
Believe me
Oh Your Silvery
Teary Sad Eyes
I can't see them :'(
I Can't!
Do whatever you want to do
That is your decision
But I...
I will be there for You
I choose Love
You've done something for me
In your Heart - you know what
And I felt it
You touched me
You did that!
For me!
Nothing you do now
Will ever change what you've done
For me!
And I wonder about that
Fade into You
For so Long!
Yes or No...?
Why...?
When...?? :O
Into Whom...?
It is so important to me to know!
Two Hearts can make
Anything happen
If they wish
Can't they?
It seems like you care
But you hide it
That is why
I Will Care For You Too
And I will try to redeem every tear
If you let me
And if all of this makes me weak
In gender games, as they say...
So called:
"Experts for Relationships"
So be it...
You can think of me as weak
But
***I Will Still Love You More***
Time always shows what matters
If not before
Then, late in our lives
Don't you know that
The key in a hole
Apparently it could mean:
'My home is your home
You are welcome'
At least that's nice explanation...
I've found! At first!
It Made Me Sooo Happy :')
Don't you know?
Have I not found the excellent one?
***
But you cried?
And I smiled?
Huh...
Who of us two is more Crazy, now?
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I'm so happy to meet you!
I don't know about you
But this made 'me' so happy!
So please...
Send me an email
And simply ask
And then you'll have it
Don't be like a child
Where is the problem?
Who will ever know
Apart from You
And me
You Silly!? :)
And isn't all of it
Really Magical?
Isn't it?
No one truly knows
What tomorrow brings
But I will enjoy the Good
For many, so many years to come
And so should you
So will you
No matter what happens
Yeah - it would be great
If only
If only
If only
But no one usually knows anything
About the next second
Let alone about
'If only'
Use it
Or Lose it
What can I say?
We are - as we are
So...
Isn't this all still Love?
...
To enjoy
I know it is
And...can you blame me?
Can you blame me...?
'Cause I now just want
To write you a song
So Beautiful :)
To Trick you
To Touch you
To Charm you
To Love you
So Deeply
So Gently
That one day
You'll simply Cryingly fall in Love
With me
Like if it's the
First and
Only
And
The Last time
Can you blame me?
And if you still won't care for me
Or like me or...
Then be it
What can I do?
But I will think of You!
Always hoping...
That you are Kind
And...
Are you?
Will you be?
Could you be?
(For me?)
So
Forget me if you want
Call it an Ending
Likewise
If ever you will want to
Gift me something for real
If it crosses your mind
For Real
I want something Special
I want The Real Thing
I need that - first and the most
What you won't ever
Capture on a photo
Not directly
That is what I want for keeps
I need it so badly...
So...
Just you hide
Behind your
Indistinguishable Marvels
Use anything to drive me
Round and around
To punish me
To make me wonder...
What it is
And will you ever let me know?
Is it tiny?
Is it something precious?
God!
I've lost Hours
Hours!
Looking at it lol
Just you grin!
I know it's important
Is it...
Oh I know...
A Comet?
Or a Portal!?
No...it can't be...
...
Or something...
This is not a fair play!
I just want you to know
I have no idea
Ahhh
I see...
You just want to
Drive me crazy
How many years
You plan
To Torture Me?
If you'll ever slip down
In Love with me
Truly
You know...
'Like falling on ice'...
For real...
Will you reveal to me what it is?
Only to me!?
Please!? :)
So yeah
I will remember You
I will need You
No matter what you do
Hurt my feelings more
If you must
Hurt me because it's not your day
Hurt me for all those who hurt you
Or just like that
For Fun
But I want to see it all
And the smaller 'secret'
Beside the Unknown
The stretch mark
Under your left arm
And The Subtle Cross
I know I'm too curious
Hm...
Maybe Destiny has really
Sent you
To a wrong guy!? :D
Maybe you still can say "bye bye"?
...
...
...
Or are you doing it all
For someone else?
Now I really don't know...
Anymore
Too many Mirrors make my mind
Unstable
Why do I see Her in your Mirror?
It's so tough...
It isn't funny!
:(
Just because she is gone
It doesn't mean she is not here
And why did you do it?
And then I mentioned it?
Without knowing about you at all
Why?
It is so Strange!?
Don't you find
That meeting point
Strange?
Supernatural?
I can't comprehend it all!
This is such a Torture!!!
So beautiful-sad-hard
You know...
There are so many of them
Why - why - why?
Words can't explain it
Can they?
What should I think of it??
For whom was it all meant, then?
Just keep doing it
Drive me crazy
Hide
Whatever makes you happy
And what have I expected?
For a Chick like that
Just to surrender?
Hmm...
Surely you can have a plenty of
Bad guys instead
Should I feel very jealous...
Worrying about the worst?
You are so hard to get
I bet you'd want lucky one
To really sweat for you...
This is so crazy!
You are stuck in my mind...
So...
Whatever you need to do
Do...
Don't you worry about me
I'll keep on Dreaming...
Hoping...
Loving...
So what if I'll cry in my Dreams?
Do you even care?
If I need you
And you are simply
Not Even There!
I don't know for whom you are born
Or whom do you really want
Maybe you are talking
To a wrong guy?
Hm...
But could then
Someone else
Like me - maybe...
Make you
Somehow somewhat happy?
'Could I help you do it better?'
Better than you yourself
Playing The Game Alone...
Ever thought about that?
No?
***
Tell me...
What's the Name
Of this
Painful-Sweet Addiction
One Heart to Another?
When your whole being
Needs so much
That your body aches
And your eyes cry
For what came down
Directly From The Sky
Is it a terrible sin if
A man just wants to hold you?
Wants just to breathe you in?
What harm exists here
In his warm words
To shut your eyes
So firmly - so easily?
What purpose lives there
In your hoping songs
If he can't see
What is under your skin?
Tell me
And I will know
Let me in...
***
And if you're curious
Wouldn't you want to see me
Crying & Pining for you??
Wouldn't you want?
To see me?
Just a Tiny peek
At least in my dreams!?
So Sneak into my nights...
Come On In and...
See me!
Watch me!
Feel me!
Maybe you'll find this
Maybe not
I guess not?
You must be thinking
About some really bad boy
Who doesn't give a damn
Neither 'bout you
Neither about any other girl...
He's playin' with
That must be it (?)
Yeah
"An Expert"
Cheap psychology of our lives
Again and again
Maybe you haven't read my song...
If only you could Really Feel
How Special It Is...
Aaah...
Man must reach really deep
Into The Well
To lift it up right
It isn't easy
It takes so much time
Should I translate it?
Rewrite it in English even better?
Maybe you thought...
Maybe I misinterpreted...
I don't know...
...
...
Anymore...
I have no idea!
About anything...
I know nothing!
Ahhh
(Is it?)
(For whom?)
...
...
...
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### 2.###
FRIEND IN NEED
UNDER SKY VISION
Huh uh...
I must admit, astonishingly..
Life is surprisingly again
One bit easier
Thanks to a new friend now
...
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'Aisling'
...
...
Just in Time!?
Or what?
Or how?
Oh...
Someone who simply - Cares
Imagine...
Big Eyes Of Kindness
Watching over you
Vision Speaking In Favor
From The Grave
Or Somewhere Unknown
Through Space And Time
Within a pair of Surprised Eyes
In so many Rock songs
Keeping you Safe
Whenever you stumble
One leading to another
It alignes
It grows
Your hairs go
Up up up up
How do you Feel?
What do you Feel?
Can you hold them
Can your eyes hold them back?
How big is it?
How powerful is...
'That Something'?
When you look around
Questioning the Senses
And...
The Windy Voice
In a distance
In your head
Starts...
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Who do you want To Be?
What is it you want To Change?
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Whom do you want To Save?
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Uhhh...
Greet
Bless
And Love
The Vision of a Beloved One
Love leads to Love
<3
At the Heart of Creation
Incomprehensible
Unimaginable
Impossible
Powers Decide
What is Possible
What is to be
<3
*Accidents Become Mercies
*Wishes Come True
*Wounds Heal
*Protected Become Protectors
Universe Remembers Everything
There Is Always A Hope
Good Deeds Multiply
When Great Multitudes
Come By
And Ally
Culmination Before Beginning
Love every bone
Broken ones twice as much
Greet
Bless
And Love
The Vision
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...
...
I'm gonna hug my friend super tight
When I see her
In fact I could turn her upside down
If she's clothed well...
Obviously...
Hey I'm not trying
Anything bad here - am I?
Her spine positioned towards me
'Could hug her legs instead
How hard it can be?
Why?
Hm...
Well, just because...
She Makes Me Happy!?
Isn't That Enough Of A Reason?
Ain't that obvious
To hug her then like that?
It is probably a bit too Cheerful
For a first hug, though!?
:D
I know She's a True Blessing!
Because...
"Friend in need is a friend indeed"
And that - Life has taught me...
Is Very Rare
Logically
How could she understand it all?
I doubt she can
Even so...
She's just being there!
Caring!
Believe it or not
So Gentle hmmm...
It strikes my fancy
And it makes me
Wonder
'How is this possible!?'
I really can't help but Feel
The Protection
By Otherworldly Forces!
Out of where...
Does it all comes from???
Hm...
...
...
So...
Thanks!
You are absolutely right about
Two way street
I knew that but Thank You
For reminding me... :)
...
...
...
Let me just ask you...
If the two of us
Some day in the future
Shall become
A very good friends
Would you mind
Always protecting me
From all the bad girls?
And any other misfortunes?
Your woman instinct & intuition
Would help me so much
And if none would pass your radar
If you'd be against some
Or...
If you'd be too afraid to lose me
Then you should tell me
And I'd consider it
And I would try my best
Not to hurt your feelings
Wouldn't I?
After all...
By then you should be my Bestie
It is all attached to a
Baloon escaped
From a willage fair
Wandering freely in the air...
Our destination is a wild guess
I know...
But...
I'm just day dreaming...
Would you mind
Whenever anything would bother us To bond even closer together?
When hugging...
If I accidently start to
Inapropriately kiss
Your beautiful body
Because...Let's say...
A month ago my girlfriend
Has announced to me
Out of the blue
"She doesn't love me anymore"
And she has dumped me cruelly
For whichever...
Her reason might have been
And I was so devastated
Therefore my life
Has lost it's previous meaning
So...
Could you please be...
So kind to stop me
Before we would ruin something
Without being hurt
Even if you like it a bit
And hug me super tight
And whisper from your very Heart
Something like...
"I will never leave you"?
Would you mind if I would do...
Similar for you?
That way we could always protect
Each other from being hurt
And be super close Friends...
Would you mind to be Super Close?
Safe From Pain...
If we would take a nap
Or sleep together
When anything has been hurting us
Legs joining legs
Fingers on our hands
Safely intertwined
Or our arms holding one another
So tightly
'Round our bodies
Always there for each other?
No matter what!
Would you mind?
I'm just wondering...
If it could happen
Would you mind?
Oh Would You Mind??
...
...
...
Uh...
Sorry...
My head is so Full of Thoughts
I'm simply trying
Not to hurt anybody
And to explain to myself
"What am I to do now?"
I'm simply sensing
I could perhaps trust you (?)
And if you are pretty normal
I want you near
It is quite that easy
Or hard (!?)
...
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### 3. ###
LIKE TWO FLAMES
OF THE SAME
I want to know you better
That is certain
But you know...
I can't see her cry...
I really can't see her being sad...
:(
I don't mind if she's a bit of crazy
Or moody
If you would see her crying...
You'd think the same as me
"Oh how can I console her?"
I'm not sure if she cares about me
But I care about her a lot
You know how the story goes...
Once a Fool...
The Foolish Heart
Can't be taught
There is no remedy
I removed some parts here
Because it could raise
All the eyebrows
It is so intense!
I like to observe & plan farther
Into the Future
Yeah, I am a bit of unhinged
Caring almost blindly...
And too soon
I think she's shy and afraid
Or something...
She is so emotional
She is an...
Emotional Little Ball Of Craziness
Imagine the cutest 'Something'
And then double it!
Yeah...
That's about it! :')
We all have our own peculiarities
What can we do?
...
...
Am I allowed to feel strangely...
Now...?
It means to me a lot
When People Stand By Me...
When I need someone
When it is Crucial
I never forget them!
Friends or Love
Are Known and best Measured
In Need...
In Bad Times...
Through Thin...
Usually the Naive think
Careless lustful feelings...
Equals Love
But Love is something
So much more
Or even different
Maybe I really am a Fringe Dweller
Or to become one
Lol (!?)
And, my friend...
If any of these will make you
Sad, angry, weird or I dunno...
Jealous...
Please don't...
I want...
Just want you near...
Because I feel you are great!
Little helper
Princess In White Super Sweet :)
She broods
Maybe she's too good for me
And that made my
Palms so sweaty-eager
"Ain't fair - ain't right
Want her more"
Is this Little Tease plain crazy
Or just another
"I'll keep him on a short leash
He'll be my mind dish"
Can't she reckon
She can tickle & ghost me...
All she wants
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But even if an 'accident' happens
If there is any chance whatsoever
I'll be back to Pay Her In Kind?
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Can't she see that?
:D
There must be
A 'Great Green Reason'
For me not having the power
To resist her
I just can't
She can break my heart
She can torture me
Or be too sweet
It's all the same
I just can't
I wish if I could hold you
Just wrap around with you
But realy firmly
You dressed all in Green
It could be really
Something Special
Or even Mystical
Unseen
I'd love that sooo much
And if she could see it
Then maybe she would understand
How Childish She Is (?)
How Safe I Am (?)
Not that I want us to rush
Into anywhere
No no no
I'm by no means perfect
As no one in fact is
But I didn't decided it
She came to me
And you could make everything ok
Just by being there
I sense you would
Yeah
...
Am I sounding awful?
Oh Sorry...
It is not my intention...
To vex anyone...
I don't want to put anyone down
Certainly not you
It's just...
I just miss her so...
I hope she could see that scene
Truly jump into it like a Siren
Dive into that picture
Like in her favourite Sea
With all of her deep breath
And miss me one bit too
It's such a extraordinary feeling
Wanting
Pining
For the First
She would experience it strikingly
I might be wrong, yet still...
I imagine she would hold her pillow
In the night
So close
Digging her small fingers into it
Clasping it almost hopelessly
Caressing it
Smooching it
Whispering 'she's sorry'
Ohhh
(?)
...
Poor Little Thing :')
What can I do to make her
Feel better..?
I just want
Just want
I Just Want!
...
...
...
..Us To Become Closer
Bit by bit
Day by day
Am I hoping for too much?
Other 'Moths' are all mostly Great
They Really Are!
As much as I know
Of course we all have problems
Of our own
Never mind that...
***
All Good People Are Beautiful
In Their Own Way
They Really Are
***
But it is just that little difference
She Made Me Cry
And I want to discover 'Why?'
I'm not guilty of anything horrid
Am I?
Am I?
Am I?
She can have any bad guy
This can cost her - my life
You know?
Everything has it's 'cracking point'
So do I
What's worst...
I'm not sure if she would care...
Or even know...
My Mind Is Again Whirling
Ohhh this is too fu*kin' hard!!!
...
...
...
...
On the other side...
...
I want 'you' close
If you are Good
I want you for my Friend
No matter what
And if you get angry
Or whatever bad or good emotion
Overcomes you
I want to hold you in my arms
Until you're safe and calm
Or be with you on the phone
Just to point you one - two small things
If I may?
I wonder if you could
Possibly smile...
Little more often? :)
Just a Tiny...
And two...
Throw the cigarettes
If you are a true smoker
That's simply a poison...
Very bad habit...
You really don't need
Been there - done that... ;-)
I'll help you with the "how"
Just ask me
Just sayin'
And I will keep you super close
If we ever progress to that...
I hope so
But without hurting her!
I won't hurt her
I mustn't
She can hurt me
She can say no to me
I won't do it to her!
No, no...
Never
I won't be the one to blame
She's too sweet for tears
If you'd see her crying
You would plead and say...
Probably the same as me:
"My Lord...
Please, let me cry instead of her"
It looks Laughable - but it is True!
So...
Without pain!
I'm being serious...
No one will cry!
And why would you?
Yeah
We people are jealous
Afraid and so on
Everyone has it's own limitations
I want you both close!
And I want you happy both
I hope this isn't a sin?
And if she wants or needs...
To hurt me
Just because I like her
Or if she really thinks...
She's too good...
For me
Or if she would say...
She doesn't need me anymore
Even if she would do it...
Only to please her ego
What can I do?
I can wait in Blue
And hope she'll feel it
One day - hopefully soon
What 'she' has done to us
And 'why'?
...
...
...
Yes - these monologues are like
An Introspection
So to speak
...
...
So again - if something...
If anything...
Will ever bother you
Whatever that is...
You just tell me!
Promise?
I know you could keep me safe!
You just want to be xxxxxx with me
And that thought alone
Brought you closer
I'm not even yet unwrapped it!
What all it means
I simply must think more
About your words
Don't I?
I am slow
I'm enjoying slowly...
...
...
She conquered my eyes
I'm busted through and through
I know...
This will sound funny at least...
Or even very touchy
But...
If it happens one day...
After 'wrestling' with her
After making her fly high
Like an Angel
After being so meltingly close
Oh...
My imagination is so vivid
I still cannot understand why but
This moment I think...
Next day
Or at least next time I see you...
I would really want
To hold 'you' for hours
And tickle you
Be there for you
I know...
I know...
Such a Strange...
Uncontrollable
Irresistible Feeling (!?)
Oh...
Is there something wrong
With me?
You would simply feel so safe
Feeling so good
Because I know you'd sense how
I'm so Happy
You'd feel my happiness
And enjoy my arms so much
And I should then...
Kiss your forehead :)
To see if you'll have any reaction
Because let us be honest
This Life Is Crazy
Not everything we feel
Can be explained easily
When even I don't understand it
How others could?
Sorry...
It is so Intriguing
In my mind
Someone's Polite Words
Like birds
Want to settle down
Safe in their little haven
Hope we get to it...
You could be my Bestie forever
If you can...
If you are truly Kind...
Promise to yourself right here
That you'll be!? :)
It sounds strange
It is strange
I can't explain it!?
Sure it's important to do so
But how?
I ponder...
Is it a guilt or something?
I think I'd want to hold you so much
So you won't feel...
Neglected at all...
Or less worthy...
Or jealous...
Or afraid that you'll lose me...
Or Lonely...
I know you are sensitive
Just show me
What you need
And I will do my best
Okay?
Am I making any sense?
Feeling is so
Indescribable
It might seem Faulty
But is it?
Is it?
And she won't be scared or angry
Because she'll know
That I'm crazy about both
And crazy in any other way lol
A bit of a hopeless case
Just in a good way
But loyal and honest
So she'll be so happy too :)
And then
When I would see her again
I'm afraid even to think about it
How eager she could be
Just to touch me
Again
Sparky
It seems when you
Sometimes miss
Your beloved
You better appreciate those
Loving moments
Spent together
I can't stop thinking
About Her
Or You
Can I be in love with her madly?
And be so close with you?
Please someone tell me...
That I can
She will tease me
To make herself irresistible
I will want her like crazy
She'll chant to be absolutely mine
You will spoil me
To show me how much you care
I will hold you so tightly
I'll be forever there for you
Could it be?
Ohh...
I feel so weird
This is so crazy isn't it?
What Am I Talking About LOL?
I'm so idealistic
In my dizzy mind
And does anyone ever wonder
Who made me feel that way?
Where's The Source?
...
...
...
But hey!! :D
You know what!?
Now I just remembered...
Out of The Deepest Blue
Wow!
Really now!?
I didn't think about this For Ages!
When I was a kiddo - you know!?
I was in fact sleeping
Please forgive me...
I forgot how many times exactly :D
...With two hot much older babes
Boy my Boy...
Oh...
They were 'of age' you know
While I was - not
I kid you not!
I didn't harm them!
I swear! LOL
Never couldn't quite remember
No matter how hard I tried
What they had done to me
Tough LOL
(Shhh you Fool!)
...
'M'...
Please!
Behave yourself! :O
Again I can see that look
In my mind eye
Keep your mouth closed
Your vampire teeth
Are rapidly glrowing!
Lol
Picture...
Two beds connected
So imagine how superb
...Was in between them
Like a sardine...in a hot pan...
Sorry!
I mean...in a tin can! :D
Wow that was a super experience
Very fond memories
(Much more back then)
Can you imagine???
Blessed between women
How they say...
"The more the merrier"!? LoL
So I guess maybe...
See how great it is
I remembered it just now!?
Maybe...
...maybe...
They've really spoiled me
Like 'spoiled brat'
Or something...?
I never really thought
About that influence
And their impact on my life
Until now!?
Hey!
I'm just sayin'
Don't get some instant Fishy ideas!
No! ...
...
How dare you!?
...They were not like that!!!
Don't be Naughty!!! LOL
No - No!
...
...
...
Oh this was such a Fairy Tale
To story tell
Today not even I wouldn't know
To believe it or not
I know
I get you lol
...
...
...
And now my friend...
She wonders
If she is 'maybe too good for me' ?
Am I not good enough for her?
At least...
To see her?
To kiss her fingers?
To give her a present?
To carry her in my heart?
Am I not?
I must say such thoughts
In her head
When I'm lying in my bed
Don't let me breathe
"Maybe too good for you"
God - How - This - Burns
Constantly
Inexplicably
I never thought
'She' would play
Like a Child
Bitter-Sweet
Hide-and-seek
With me
It reminds me of a very old film
Sleeping Dwarf
Who has lost all of his
Hope and Will
Slowly fading - disappearing
Into a Forest floor
Until someone comes
And disturbs him
Once more
What is she thinking
That I should just 'not worry'
If she is somewhere
Kissing or...'loving' (!?)
Some guy
Thinking in fact - about me???
Imaginary
One night bloody stand
Hanging on my mind
Feels like a knife with huge teeth
Stabbing me to the side
While she's looking me
So gently - lovingly in the eyes
Is she really enjoying my pain?
What is this - A Tragedy!?
Maybe my pain is helping her
I dunno?
How about no communication
From her side
And Why?
Why?
Am I poisonous?
Some days I think
I am talking to her
While
She is talking to God knows whom
Some other lad
Could this be...The Truth?
And...
The Craziest Story Of My Life (!?)
This girl is driving me nuts!
Am I not hard enough...
I mean - strong?
Now you can see
Why you are also
So important to me
I never know what can I expect
Of her
She's super hot to me
Yet she doesn't let me
Get any closer
But she makes me want her more
And more and more and more... :O
I mean...
What is this?
A Funny Love Spell (!?)
Is Little One once again...
Making fun of me!? :D
Is that it?? :O
I hope that no one
Will resent my words
But...
I'm
Totally...
Absolutely
Electrified
Spellbound
And
Bedazzled
Spending my nights
Rolling on The Edge
Arms in Search of a Body
Sleeping Mind Wanting
Oh...
It is so Ridiculously Energizing
***
How can you loose
The Love Arrow at
Someone's Heart
Wound him shyly
Sneakily
So he cannot be sure
Who's hiding...
Laughing so adorably
Behind the trees
And then tease all of his senses
Without a Mercy forevermore?
And expect of him - what?
That he will simply forget it?
Ignore you?
That he won't dream of you two...
Hand in hand?
***
Should I Scream?
Should I Scream!?
You can't talk about these matters
With just anyone - My Friend
You know?
See...that is I guess
Why I want to hold you right now
In my arms
To counterbalance
All of this influx
This...
Helplessness
Let's hope I would not bruise you
With my handprints
Too much
You must be careful
Should warn me
And struggle against
If I unknowingly get carried away
Supercharged
Overcharged
What is she doin' to me???
You could tell me - I expect
Few smart words
Without jumping before the cart
Without calling me names
Without making any...
Bad conclusions
Or wrong judgments
Could You?
Or you could just hold me too
Without a word
Next to your Beautiful Heart
You aren't pushy
No
I could probably even now bet
You are so kind
You would not want
Not deliberately
To hurt her
Or me
Very sensible of you
That's why I will never know
How to thank you enough
I'm not joking...
I know it sounds crazy but
You could even help her
Even she could help you too
It blows my mind!!!
And if both will be close to me
It should be obvious
That we'll look carefully
How not to hurt each other
And that should be pretty easy
Am I saying too much? :O
Because you see...
I really don't know what to think
I have no idea
Should I Laugh
Or Should I Cry
Or probably Both (!?)
Now
And I'm not even mentioning
Everything
Like for example
A girl the other day
Blue eyed and young
I was just blabbing
Psychology, relationships and more
We were not alone
Not sitting too close
No one was flirting
And I can't truly
Pin point the moment
When she has started to twirl
Her beautiful long hair
And smile
It was nothing!
Just a speck of curiosity most likely
But it was transmiting
For a few seconds or maybe
Even longer
I only occasionally looked her way
I certainly didn't stare...
Like Electricity...
In the air
Subconsciously of course
Life is filled with funny moments
When people around you are good
And simply Enjoy their time
...
...
...
I'm afraid My Friend
That she will hurt me more
I think boys in the past
Had disappointed her
Or something
Or she hadn't had them
Which certainly isn't a flaw
If it is true
Smart people are drawn to a
Pristine meadows
For a reason
I feel and I might be wrong
That she secretly wants me to
Really Suffer Badly
For Her Touch
My eyes go up and behind
On such an idea
Because it is so Cold!
But then again
Her skimpy defenses are not
Impenetrable
Aren't they?
She can only try to find
Another & Better 'me' lol
Good luck with that, really...
My old friend had once
Found a man looking
'Just like me'
In his eyes
'The man was me'
He scared him on the
Railway station's bench lol
"Oh come on, get up...
What are you pretending..."
He was absolutely the same as me
But only thing different
He Was Not Me lol
Friend was so embarrassed later
Apologizing to the poor sod...
He told me
...
Maybe friend was drunk?
Such A Fool! :D
I almost died laughing when he
Tried to explain it to me
LMAOF
So you see...
And now I'm talking to you...
My Sweet Runner
(Pinching your both cheeks :D )
Sorry Girl, I'm really Scarce - too...
'Can't touch this'
(Tap - tap on them)
;-)
By the way
If that wasn't crazy enough...
My dad
Told me about week ago
Absolutely non invitingly
"You are an Alien"
And I looked at him
In awe and confusion...
"Where from...
Is he crazy or what?"
I don't believe
He had ever in the past said
Such a statement to me (!?)
But I then thought to myself...
Something on these lines
"Oh I see...
If I really am...lol
That's in fact
An excellent information!
Because...
I Know - Just The Girl"
:D
...
...
Oh you make me so Warm
What if you'd try to delight me?
How could I ever do you a
Slightest harm?
When I see them
'Great White'...Choppers
My mind rings the red alarm lol
What am I gonna do with you?
What will you do to me?
Are You Safe?
Are you safe like me?
Can I trust you??
Would you rather
Kiss me
Or
Miss me?
Or
Cross me?
I assume you want to break me
But I don't understand exactly why
(???)
It hurts but I
Don't mind the pain
When I know it is for you
Do you like it when it hurts me...
Too?
Wanna hurt me...
Really really badly?
To prove something?
To feel better?
To make me pay?
To make me Want You Insufferably?
Please hurt me
If I'm guilty for being too far away
Also for whichever other reason
You might think of
Go on - help your day
I want you to feel better
It's painful so much more
If you are not well
Oh I like it so slow...
I might have been too hasty
Wasn't I?
My mistake
For better connection
I should've paid better attention
When you said that you want a toy
Only in your free time - boy
I know you're busy at times
I just wanted little bit more of you
Heart to Heart
I didn't want you to run away
I'll bribe you generously just to stay
I know it must've sounded bad
Whatever it was what hurt you
But you'll understand
When you read it all
Til' the end
I'm Sure
Then you'll have
A good laugh with yourself
Maybe!?
...
...
I'm asking myself
...
If you would push me way too far
And really smash my heart
Like Glass
To pieces
Would you feel sorry?
Would you be unimaginably tender?
Would my tears become yours?
How would you heal me?
Then again...
I wonder would my friend try
To heal me and how
Would my tender friend show me
How a woman can care for a man?
When he is shattered and down
I suspect she'd try gently
With Vodka
Old remedies are often...
One of the best
But who knows?
Who knows?
...
...
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Mandatory Stop Here
This is a pausing part
Pour or Refill your drinks
Best is yet to come!!! :D
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...
Thank You My Friend
For putting up
With my puberty shenanigans
I feel worse than a 15 y.o. lol
Will send you munch of
Positive Vibrations &
Wishes In Whispers
I appreciate whatever Good
You've done
Or will do
For me
I Really Do
...
...
...
And you
My Sweety...
I seek that emotion
When I first saw it In Your Eyes
I'll bleed for that...
'Mildness with a pinch of Determination'
In your expression
Hurt me as much as you need
Break my heart into shards!
Do whatever you want
I don't mind
Life is rarely easy
I want to deserve it
So show me
How can I deserve it?
***
...
...
...
..
Either that way or the smart way
If you prefer when you get tired
Of running from me
I can let you go...
So you can 'win' & escape!?
You can then - chase after me!?
;-)
Almost like Rodney and the Thug
And Delboy with his suitcase
Chasin' in the streets
Ya know that scene? :D
Would you like to chase after me?
NO!!!???
Hey why are you breathing...
So heavenly?
Can't Those Exquisite Thighs...
Run Any Faster!?
LOL
I always imagined
You must be at least
One part from Highlands?
But now I'm not so sure
Nah'
No - no I'm turnin' the other way
Let me tell Ya what's the matter...
I'll reach you and grab you
And then you will resent it!
Finding me flaws
"You are a man"
"You wasn't fair"
"My legs hurt badly"
You'll moan...and complain...
Finding thousands of examples
Nagging aloud
Then I'll have
A Lifetime of Problems!?
Why would we want that???
Try to be honest...
Which story to you sounds better
To tell to the people:
A) Giggly & Faster
"Ohh I started it
But he was so
Persistent afterwards
I stood no chance
I had to go for him" :D
Or
B) Proud & Slower
"My beautiful Darling Angel
Made our dream come true
Almost all by herself
And that is why we are here" :)
2 samples - 20 words each, only :)
Never mind the exact words!
You get my point
No...
You started the chase
Join the Moths and Snatch me!
:P :P
If You Can (!?) LOL
My Torch Light is on
And off and on
And off
And on
And...off
And...
Still off lol
...
Waaait!
You can't see me?
Are you sure you can't see me?
'No?' ->Yes
Good...
Very good
lol
...
...
***
Oh it is a bit of troubling
When I think about it
I can imagine you'll try
Some dirty tricks
To try to cheat me
To beat me
I'll think about them
When I sleep
Turnin' & tossin' n' searchin'
I'll come up
With a better strategy I promise
'Kiss your both middle finger tips'
I swear! :D
Fortunately...
I guess...
My friend will protect me
She's a bit of Dangerous
If I got her right
Just about the right measure ;-)
I don't mind...
...
Who doesn't prefer it
When women
Are also protective
Of their men...
...Or male friends?
;-)
...
Suppose I could just kiss her once
In a slow motion
Really Loudly
On her cheek
So that every part of her body
Would sense it
And whisper to her ear
"Don't sleep"
To keep her highly awake
In dark hours
For a better
'Moth is approaching' alertness
Yes...
I think that will make her
Really Eager
I like it
I like her
A lot
...
...
Sorry Runner - I luv to use
A bit of leverage or help
Whenever I can
:P
I always play totally fair though
In Love and War
...
...
Now...
Imagine The Happiness!!!
If you could be so fast to grab me
"Gotchya!!!"
Your...
Heart beating like crazy
Sweat drippin' everywhere
Tears like in a cartoon
Spraying & flying all around lol
Maybe it could really happen!?
...
...
I'm not quite sure in reality
But...possibly...
...
...
In Your Dreams???
(lol)
Gotchya! :'D
(Mwah!)
...
...
...
...
Just a small notice:
Some people might
Severely misunderstood
Being emotional or good
For being weak
Or even worse - spineless (haha)
I think of myself as good
But trust me
Deliberately disrespect me N times
Lie to me
Disappoint me
Or try to do me
A serious harm
And then you'll know
Who is weak lol...
I can then just forget you
Why to bother with an idiot at all?
I need good people in my life
If you try to manipulate me
In a really bad or evil way
You won't succeed
You'll hurt yourself instead
And for your own sake
Better do not try
How B&C has once taught me
"I replace you like a sock"
(So I did)
Now she can cheer to tears
Or even to piss
And annoy
Some other poor bloke
I wish them all
All the luck
They surely need it
LMAOF :D
I always strive...
And has of lately even more...
Committed myself not to hurt
That's the way to go!
...
...
...
Oh! :O
Hopefully I won't need to use
My brain too much
This much
Too soon
I hope
This is too tough!
Really!
Please do not take any of this as...
Too edgy
Will you?
Do have in mind that...
In fact...
I'm at the moment ridiculously
Emotionally Highly Intoxicated
Standing on a Seat
On a Huge Carousel...
Capacity I think
About 1001 people...
Circling at full speed
Round and Round
But my body is flying
Almost in a
Horizontal position
100 metres above the Ground
Wooohooo!
Few rounds of laughs
Few rounds of sobbing
On and on
But also important
This crazy machine also changes
The spin direction
Every now and then
It seems - at random times (!?)
LoL
So have that in consideration
Please...
Before you judge me...
Harshly
And throw rotten tomatoes at me
Or do something nastier
...
...
Since this was a story about You Two - predominantly
I'm sending you Two
One Warmest Hug to each
And one nose kiss for You
My Runner
And one forehead kiss for You...
My Friend
You Deserved It, Both <3
:)
I don't want anyone to be offended Do I?
There you Go
I like you Both
Only Time will show
Who will like me
:)
And that's your problem
Not mine ;-)
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### 4. ###
MOON OVER ME
Now Something Really Interesting
Folks...
Does anyone of you believe
In...
The Importance Of
The Symbolism?
No?
Because...
Old Big Moon was So Indicative
From my Point of Reference
On 10th of August 2022
In the late evening / dusk...
Do notice that was almost
11-th day of the Month!
(Numerology)
(Full Sturgeon Moon was
12th of August - 03:36 am)
Picture it from top to the bottom!
-Clouds covering the Moon top
-One perfect yellow horizontal stripe
-One perfect cloud horizontal stripe
-Yellow Moon at the bottom
I know it meant...
Something Smashing!
I'll try to put it on a paper
Both stripes were thick and:
Perfectly full yellow
Perfectly full darker (night) cloud
And of the same thickness!
All 4 areas of approximately...
Similar thickness
Say - What (!?)
:)
***
***
And The Meaning Of It Is...?
Someone please help me
With the meaning!
***
***
Unfortunately...
I didn't carry the phone with me...
I was very very surprised
When I saw it!
...
...
And on 12th of August
When I've noticed something else
Very important to me
Not Moon or Clouds this time
Which I could maybe link
Perhaps to explain a little more
The Moon with 2 stripes / lines...
I am now even more surprised!?
Huh...
This is like...
Like almost definitely Otherworldly!
Or something very very weird!
Hm...
I am not sure if the two
Could be related...
Nevertheless
One person
Which is I dare to say
Intuitive & Smart
And also possibly connected
To some 'strange' Force (!?)
Has already many weeks before
Revealed additional facts
Or a...
Possibility of a tie!?
Those go along with all of this
Strange, indeed...
Imagine:
Four coincidences
From 4 different sources! :O
Or even more of them...
Connected By Meaning
Pointing In The Same
Or Similar Direction!
Hm...
I know how this sounds
"Here we go again...
He's again reading
'In between lines'
Something Abstract
You simply cannot prove..."
Believe me...
I know...
...
...
There are so many areas
If one is only interested:
Miracle of Love
Law of attraction
Power of belief
Power of intention
Karma
Reincarnation
Cause & Effect
Synchronicities
Synchromysticism
Symbolism
Numerology
...Etc
When
Weird Coincidences
Or God-Incidences
Or Synchronicities
Start To Build Up
You simply can't say
You do not see them
If you are aware of them
If they Exist
So Clearly & Obviously
Presenting Themselves
At The Right Time
To You!
Can You!?
Like Ripples On The Reality Surface
Or even gentle...
Universe's Nudges ;-)
Sure some would exclaim:
"Patterns and coincidences
Are everywhere
To be found"
And there's no doubt about that
But I believe that explanations
Are not that simple
Sometimes!
The last few years
Have seriously changed my opinion
About 'Impossible'
I must admit such
'I do not believe my senses'
- Moments
Frighten me and Excite me
In so many ways
Let us simply conclude
That 'Intelligence'
Or 'Collective Consciousness'...
Or even God's Presence
However we want to call it
Is certainly everywhere
Around us...
And in us...
And It Communicates
Every bit of information
Is knowledge!
For us to understand
And implement
All is interconnected & entwined
Although such conclusion
Should be a 'pure logic'
Could it be we people
Oftentimes take many things
Hidden in plain sight
For granted and dismiss them
Even though some are
Or Could Be
In truth
Important and valid for us?
***
Although I've investigated
It much more than this
I still want to hear about
The Moon & Clouds...
Connected symbolism
So please let me know
Avia & Co.
Or any other smarties
Thnx :)
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### 5. ###
LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING
People...
Please, please, please...
Read texts / songs
For what they really are
And not for feeding
And justifying your fears
**Warnings and similar
Are obviously something
One bit different
***Straight Closed Polyamory
I've simply mentioned
Before anything...
As a Highly Hypothetical & Idealistically Imagined situation
To Matilda
It was just to clarify my point
About something else to her
She'll understand...
I hope so
I didn't meant it then
Not consciously
As a suggestion, either
I gave it simply as an example
Clearly, usually...
Even 'one on one' love
Is challenging enough
I've just put a man into a Hypothetical Situation
It can be any man...
Or any woman...
But then again I wonder
What if such situation happens...?
I'm thinking serious - Polyamory (Polygamy, Polyandry)
But straight, normal & natural...
Men-woman or
Women-man
Of course it sounds crazy at first But Life throws
Unimaginable events at us...
Sorry
I'm not being selfish or greedy
Or anything bad...
Please...
W.A.I.T
Just wait...
Let me explain myself...
I for example have a peculiar spot
For loneliness, suffering
And I just wonder...
If - for example...
Few kind women would ever
Really fall in love with me
If they would feel
That they need 'me'
And so on...
In around the same time...etc...
It would break me in pieces
If I'd have to choose
Do you know what I mean?
To disrespect or hurt someone
Just like that
If all are Kind, lonely, friendly etc
To lose someone, just because...
Sure everyone can choose
One person
Which is let us say one bit 'better'
In that 'dot in time', to us...
But the word 'competition'...
Could be unfitting
That's like saying...
"You deserve my love
You do not"
Or
"You are good
You are not"
And so on...
To me it sounds very...
Yeah...
But of course...
*Thanks Little Actress* ;-)
It sounds very...
'Discriminating'
...speaking in general...
It sounds Ugly & Cold
Of course there are repercussions
Two bladed sword
I know you can accuse me now
Of being partial
Or
Assuming wrongly I'm just
Attempting to...
'Drive the water on my mill'
There are too many combinations
Of possible intricacies
And what not...
But let's leave that - on the side
For some time!
...
...
Imagine this situation
From only one angle
Where they all love 'you'!
I mean, what then?
What then?
And on the other hand of course...
How would they see it?
That is why I've said
"And Love for all"
Wasn't that obvious?
And by that I simply mean
Love...
Not Poly or anything
Simply...
LOVE
People deserve it
Life is Easier when you have
Someone who really cares
Someone who's
'On the similar page'
In the Book of Life
***
Love Changes Everything
***
When speaking about
'Serious' Polyamory
I'm not thinking about
Open
Free
No boundaries
Crazy sexual things...
That is simply nothing alike!
Love of course
It is not only about naked intimacy
Love is so much more
It is a Friendship after all!
Or even also before all!
It's caring
A commitment
A honest word
A promise
Being there when it's tough
...
At least for those who get
What Love is all about
The same can be said if
Few men would love one woman
It is a Real Dilemma
Because not all people have ever Thought about it
Or would ever do it...
But what if it happens???
Of course one on one...
Girl - boy Love is normal
Enough and so on...
No one denies that...
No one sane is against that!
Do I look to you like insane?
(Whaaat!?
...
How Dare You!?
LoL)
But what if it happens otherwise? :O
Do you really think you have
Anything much to say to what Universe decides to "throw at you"?
Like...
Sickness, injury, earthquake
Flood, death, love...??
I have had similar...
Not the same!
Fear for years...
From time to time
Quite Silly-Joking fear but...
It can become serious...
Of course I'm naturally
For normal love...
However...
Life can be
Much stranger than that...
Anything can happen!
And bet your life
Anything will happen!
Inevitable it is...
Please...
Don't look at me
With wrong idea now...
I Surrender - Hey!
Just You Stop Please!
Don't shoot me now!
Or throw stones at me!
I'm not promoting
Anything wrong here
Instead
Just imagine yourself
For a brief flash
In such a funny
But serious situation
Rather
And what would You do!?
Imagine loving one nice person
With few other nice people more and
Then...
Imagine yourself alone being loved by few nice people
Hm...
Particularly if you are an Empath?
Or also a lonely person and so on...
Ha!?
It is more than...
A very tricky situation!
Isn't it?
Don't get me wrong...
***
This isn't meant At All as a...
Silent suggestion to anyone!
***
I'm only thinking in broad sense
What if it "simply" happens?
By Chance!?
Or Coincidence
By Higher Force
Not On A Deliberate Purpose
And so on...
For me...
I guess I would may-be
Be able
To do it
But only under Ideal terms
That means
Full respect
No jealousy
Loyalty
And all the rest as it goes
But this is from
Normal life viewpoint - I guess Almost impossible to achieve...?
So this can happen in a Hypothetical Theory
But in Practice
It would be much harder...
But for some I guess
It is still viable!?
Because some are living it
Around the Globe...
Hm...Blimey!?
To have a little comparison...
Similar is if you have few kids...
Of your own and you prefer some And neglect some...
It is wrong!
You should ideally share
Love, time & resources equally
Same would be in an unusual
Multi - relationship
Built on healthy fundaments
And Family or a Relationship
Should be lead only as:
"One for all and all for one"
Which in general obviously
Does not
Translate into
Everyone making love to everyone
Don't hate me now!
Don't look at me...
With big worried eyes!
Don't!
Don't!
Don't!
Don't imagine me in a Harem
Chicks feeding me grapes
Or even the other combination
Oh nooooo!!!
LOL
I'm just thinking about
So many things in my life
That my head aches! LOL
Does That Means...
I'm Not Very Boooring?
"Viking" Princess I Beg You!!!
Help me!!!
Use Your Bow!
Save me from them!
I don't want to be captured
In a Harem
Being held locked in a golden cage As a Trophy
By a group of
Vicious Hungry Chicks!
LOL
If you save me...
I'm all Yours!? :)
I mean...
How can I defend myself From...
I'm a bloody hopeless case
Can't even defend myself lol...
These lonesome sweets are
Like blood thirsty mosquitoes
They are not losing time! :D
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### 6. ###
SHINE YOUR LOVE
TIL' THE LAST BREATH
People...
Jokes aside...
Now Seriously...
Please Do Notice...
I'm Only Trying My Very Best
I imagine some of you
Find it great
And so on...
And some perhaps
Find themselves offended...
But again...
Trust me...
I'm only doing my best...
This isn't to say I can't be better
Some are so
Silent...
Polite...
Gentle...
Shy...
Waiting patiently...
In the corner...
They are speaking no words
Yet their doings & aura
'Speaks instead':
"Please look at me...
Look at me
I'm alone
I want you
I need you"
Huh...
Sweet as Honey...
People are just lonely
Maybe even ill or
Having a hard time
They want attention, love, touch
These hurt you the most!
I feel You too...now...
For sure - this time (?)
And what should I say now?
What can I do?
Can I just Open My Heart?
Please?
<3
So...
I Appreciate All Of You
Can't imagine how else
I could ever say this
I want to make you all Happy
As much as I can!
Anyway I can!
Is that a sin?
Is that not enough?
Am I greedy or selfish
Or what am I
For doing so
I do not know
Please
You judge me alone - for yourself
I never make a game
Out of emotions
Not in a bad way, whatsoever
I do take it seriously
Maybe even...
Too seriously sometimes
God knows
It has costed me in the past
But I can always see myself
In the Mirror
I'm not, "you know"...
It's just...
I just feel...
And I Know...
I Need To Thank Everyone
I must show Respect
*I Need To Protect*
I can't be rude
***
There's a reason for everything
That's why it is happening
***
Some will maybe try to abuse it
To some it could feel wrong
Well, for that matter
Maybe even to me
On some days...
It seems weird...
But again...
I remember myself
I'm Really Just Trying
So Hard To Do
What's 'Hopefully The Best'
In this very moment
In a rather 'special' situation
The Universe will decide the Rest
That's how it always is!
And no, it is not easy for me!
Of course it isn't!
But then again
I'm no regular guy - am I?
***
***
The Bottom Line Is:
I Know I'm being So Blessed
And it makes me very Humble
Protective & Thankful
To all
Grateful
But also - Responsible For It
Because we all have Expectations
And so on...
So if I non-deliberate
Sadden anyone - I'm Really Sorry
But At The Core Of It All
Is
LOVE
<3
***
***
Otherwise, how else could I ever explain it? :O
A Conspiracy against me?
Believe me, I've thought even that! LOL
I mean...
I could be rude to some
And good to some?
How would that look, then?
If you are Kind I better treat you the same?
If you are
Lonely
Sad
Misunderstood...
Should I just tell you...
"Get the fu*k out of here!"?
Or should I ignore some
Even if I have somehow
Only now learned about them?
Of course not
I love to do something about it
If I can
If it is about me!? ;-)
That's me...
That is me
And what will came out of it?
I have no faintest idea
I still can't see the Future!
Some say they see it, though
Can You? :O
If you can, please do let me know!
We'll play a Lottery!
And share our winnings! :)
So, we'll try our best and...see...
Not all are here...
For the same reasons
And so on...
I'm not stupid ya know?
I'm still loving Little One
And I Always Will
I still Grieve
We still Grieve
Does that give an answer
To any of...
Someone's Curious Questions?
And Mine Main
For That Person Are
*Do You Know...
Who You Are!?
*What or Who is
Inside of your body!?
Because of all
Only you worry me...
The more I see
The more I'm perplexed
I have no idea what to think of you!
You are cold - you know?
I don't want to sadden you
But I do notice such things
Obviously that is why
You came here
You want to admit it or not
What are you hiding deep inside...
From the rest of the world...
To not see?
Who hurt your Ego?
What is there to be 'fixed'?
Show It To Me
Piece by Piece
Maybe for you this is a game?
Maybe for your little gardener friend
Like breathing new life
Into old photographs
But not for me
Not for me
Not - for - me
Which watch?
What crab?
What stem?
And so on...
*Are you sure your breath
Is solely yours???
...
...
...
..
All of this is so...
Crazy
Crazy
Crazy
To cut the story...
To be able to finish this - ever!
...
...
...
In the end
I love people
Who love to help!
***
***
Aren't that one of the best
If not the best points of this life?
To Help...
And To Love
***
***
I Deliberately Shine It
And of course
It is not only about Empathy
I mean...
Business
Friendship
Love
Etc...?
You see...
If I ever decide and accomplish
To get rich
If Lady Luck Pats Me
On my shoulder for my Hard Work...
Most likely I will carry on
On similar general path
If it will be possible
Because it is
So Good In The End...
You know - Patch Adams
Sort of a thing?
Original and / or Film!?
Yeah!!!
### 7. ###
RELAXNATION
So now, my friends - you know?
Deep slow breaths...
Let your...
Overwhelming tensional
Confusion finally evaporate
Think!
Look left
Look right
Again!
Think!
Think!
Look all around you
Again!
Think!
Feel
Close Your Eyes
Feel!
LOL
...
...
...
This Show is almost about to End
Until the next Time!
Are you ready?
Ready to go?
Sad?
Do you still want...
Something more???
Oh my...
My...
If anyone is still...
Unsatisfied???
I'm gonna really s' s' spank you!!!
You can leave your fishnets
Or any other protective apparel on LoL
<3
This was Extremely Hard
And Exhausting
To play-write
And it glitters only One Part
Of how I see
The World Around Us...
For me nothing is set in stone...
Apart from crucial things...
Ups...
I'm so sorry I was ought
To give you this Warning
In the beginning!
Better later than earlier
LOL
***
THIS IS A VERY WEIRD SHOW
LOST SOULS CONGREGATE HERE
YOU BETTER DO NOT COME IN
IF YOU ARE HOT
***
...
...
...
..
Thank You and Sleep Loved
<3
When the night comes
And day leaves
Put something special on
Or
Lie down free
Free of all
Remove all distractions
Build an Atmosphere
Think about something
That makes you happy
Whatever positive
Occupies your mind
And brings a smile
To your lips and eyes
Imagine The Scenario
And 'fall' into It
Experience the emotions
Enjoy as much of your senses
As you can
Push your
Body & Mind
Heart & Soul
Into it
As you go deeper...
And deeper...
...
And deeper...
...
Allow yourself to have
The most beautiful dreams
There is no reason
Not to Reach It
In your Sleep
Tonight
Or
Any other night
Zz
Z
(The Curtain Is Closing)
...
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Depeche Mode - Higher Love
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/depechemode/higherlove.html
Enjoy...
By 'Maestro' Martin L Gore
Yea' I think that's it (!?)
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James - All I'm Saying
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/james/allimsaying.html
- Do not disturb The Dead!
(With...Seances, Ouija Boards...)
Rather speak to them
From your Heart
Or in your Dreams
Etc
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Djordje Balasevic -
Pesma o jednom petlu
https://genius.com/Djordje-balasevic-pesma-o-jednom-petlu-lyrics
A song about one cock (Rooster)
Search on his
Official Youtube channel
The original version
"I've had a terrific cock"
(No dirty allusions please!)
Lol...
If you by any chance
Adore chicks much
Which I really doubt
But if 'you do'
Or even 'not'
How Is It Possible
In This World
You've never heard of this
Small Masterpiece?
You can't understand a word...
About it - can you?
Can You???
Oh...
That Makes Me So...
So...
One part SAD
One part LMAOF :D
Babe if only you could understand!!!
But sadly...nope...hahaha
I'm only pretending
...
I don't loveya
At all
Ne - ver :p
Aj, Živjeli!
Cheers! :D
Bok!
Chau!
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Since it is So Huge
Zillion of hours build into
It will be updated possibly...
I need to check Grammar...Etc...
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Aisling <3
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