Achingly Beautiful (demo in progress)

Achingly Beautiful

(Written 10.3.2022 - ...in progress...)


Oh my God

This is so

Achingly Beautiful


Like a Magnetic Lullaby

Drawing me closer


What are you doing to me?

What am I doing to myself?

Why I had to see this?


I can't stand it

But

I can't stop looking at it

Oh I'm sorry

I am - - - gonna cry

It is not for a man to cry

But I will

Oh I will


Like...

Going ages back in time

Imagine

An overwhelming

Senses challenging

One right after another

"Any Human Heart"

Tv Marathon

Now picture...The Fall

In

Beautiful...

Tall flowery grasses


Shattering To Pieces

Sometimes

Is all you can


Am I gonna die?

Blonde Blue Beautiful


Say I won't die!

If I come closer

Swear I won't die

I can't go any closer

Better scare me away


Admit you want to torture me!

Threaten you want to kill me!


Unstoppable desires spreading from my belly

To all other parts

Like uncontrollable bodyquakes


Disarmed

Electrified

Blind


Girl

You are melting me

Making me restless

Your piercing lovely words

Fly through my mind

Like swallows here run through Spring

And if there is a genuine Good

A true Love

...

For anyone

Or anything at all

In You

...

I won't survive

I won't sleep anymore


Shameful from me to say:

But...

"I've caught myself in"


Soles of your feet

Are more than a wildest dream

Wouldn't know where or how

To start


And if I ever - Ever

Deserve that much

I'll burst in Heavens

In thousands

Like a rocket

Crazy!

In a New Year's night


It should be forbidden

For a plain man

Such as me

To come close to a sweetest chick

With beautiful shiny feathers

Such as you

___

Ever

___


You will torture me

You will kill me

...Either way


Achingly Beautiful

...No...

Achingly Blue

Chemical

Gentle

Soft


My heart can't cope with it

Do you understand?

Am I being clear?

My heart really, really can't cope with it


I will tremble

I will shake

I will fall apart

Disintegrated


It's in your eyes

It's in your hair

It's in your teeth

It's in your voice

It's in your past


You are sooo Achingly Beautiful

You love nature

Are you simply normal too?

Are you of caring kind too?

Do you have any flaws at all?

Please have mercy

Pleaseee have mercy <hands with fingers crossed in begging position>

I am falling apart


How could I ever compete?

Or compare...

You are way too much


But still I’ve childishly-naively found myself in


I'm being honest

I just wanted to tell you


Don't put a blame on me

Achingly Beautiful

I am falling apart

I don't know what I'm doing

I have no idea what I'm saying


Willingly I swam into a cutest fish – ing - nets

Lured

A most famous trap of

Seeing what we want to – See


What will I do?

What - can I do?

Achingly Beautiful

I always - needed someone like You


Invisibly

Entering a Soul

Of a seriously wounded soldier

Preparing the bandages

Glowing with Care

Red Cross up on her sleeve

Soooo Emotional and Warm and Gentle…

Natural...

Glaring Kindness

**I saw it in your eyes**


I simply cannot handle it

I am unable to process it

As Voice softens into a she-wolf's almost-weep-call

You tear me to pieces

You enter my essence

As vibrations touch my overkeen senses

Fears multiply

Is this a short circuit in my head?

For I know...

If I reach you I might somehow hurt you

If you discard me you might

Erase & ruin me -

Entirely & forever

If - if - if

Avoiding causing Pain

Avoiding being Hurt

Avoiding to Wish

Painfully Beautiful

It hurts so much!


My little presence blooms in silence

Hidden behind protective walls

...For a tiniest possibility


I should run as fast as I can

I should run away

But

I can't

I can't sleep

I can't think

I can't run

I can’t escape it

Can’t resist it


What should I do?

Why are you so Beautiful?

Why I had to see this?

Why?

Why?  <Through almost desperate start of crying>


(I would hug you till death) <very silent, fade>




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DEMO in Progress !!!

Written predominantly probably as I remember since 10th to perhaps 15th of 

March

This will probably need much more work.

Until my mind & eyes bleed…

Possibly I will carve in a few changes...

Still, here it is!

Another crazy one!


Excited? :))

Not?


I hope you’ll feel it for what it is!


If I'd be helluva smarter et al. - I would be able to get in and stay

Stay...


Beauty lies in your eyes


Oh I want...

Lips on the ti-ps

Lips so lightly on your soles

To barely touch them

Barely.

Barely is when you can’t say for sure if they touched them or not!

So close and so gentle

And that much is Waaaay Too Much!


My God my mood is such I’m gonna climb up to the top of the tallest tree here, and yell whatever comes on my mind - until you can hear it!

These awoken early spring bats must be day-sleeping up there too! Two of them, you know!!

I promise you – I’ve seen them flying!!!

LOL


As I’m putting it up on www my heart thumps like craaazy...

Comments

  1. The smiths of destiny3 April 2022 at 03:16

    "Everything you do is simply kissable!
    Whyyyy can't Iiiii bee youu?"
    (The Cure - 'Why can't I be you?')

    &

    "Ja sada volim vješticu na metli
    Sve druge žene sad za mene su rahmetli"
    LoL
    (Laka - ‘Vještica’)

    ReplyDelete

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