Achingly Beautiful (demo in progress)
(Written 10.3.2022 - ...in progress...)
Oh my God
This is so
Achingly Beautiful
Like a Magnetic Lullaby
Drawing me closer
What are you doing to me?
What am I doing to myself?
Why I had to see this?
I can't stand it
But
I can't stop looking at it
Oh I'm sorry
I am - - - gonna cry
It is not for a man to cry
But I will
Oh I will
Like...
Going ages back in time
Imagine
An overwhelming
Senses challenging
One right after another
"Any Human Heart"
Tv Marathon
Now picture...The Fall
In
Beautiful...
Tall flowery grasses
Shattering To Pieces
Sometimes
Is all you can
Am I gonna die?
Blonde Blue Beautiful
Say I won't die!
If I come closer
Swear I won't die
I can't go any closer
Better scare me away
Admit you want to torture me!
Threaten you want to kill me!
Unstoppable desires spreading from my belly
To all other parts
Like uncontrollable bodyquakes
Disarmed
Electrified
Blind
Girl
You are melting me
Making me restless
Your piercing lovely words
Fly through my mind
Like swallows here run through Spring
And if there is a genuine Good
A true Love
...
For anyone
Or anything at all
In You
...
I won't survive
I won't sleep anymore
Shameful from me to say:
But...
"I've caught myself in"
Soles of your feet
Are more than a wildest dream
Wouldn't know where or how
To start
And if I ever - Ever
Deserve that much
I'll burst in Heavens
In thousands
Like a rocket
Crazy!
In a New Year's night
It should be forbidden
For a plain man
Such as me
To come close to a sweetest chick
With beautiful shiny feathers
Such as you
___
Ever
___
You will torture me
You will kill me
...Either way
Achingly Beautiful
...No...
Achingly Blue
Chemical
Gentle
Soft
My heart can't cope with it
Do you understand?
Am I being clear?
My heart really, really can't cope with it
I will tremble
I will shake
I will fall apart
Disintegrated
It's in your eyes
It's in your hair
It's in your teeth
It's in your voice
It's in your past
You are sooo Achingly Beautiful
You love nature
Are you simply normal too?
Are you of caring kind too?
Do you have any flaws at all?
Please have mercy
Pleaseee have mercy <hands with fingers crossed in begging position>
I am falling apart
How could I ever compete?
Or compare...
You are way too much
But still I’ve childishly-naively found myself in
I'm being honest
I just wanted to tell you
Don't put a blame on me
Achingly Beautiful
I am falling apart
I don't know what I'm doing
I have no idea what I'm saying
Willingly I swam into a cutest fish – ing - nets
Lured
A most famous trap of
Seeing what we want to – See
What will I do?
What - can I do?
Achingly Beautiful
I always - needed someone like You
Invisibly
Entering a Soul
Of a seriously wounded soldier
Preparing the bandages
Glowing with Care
Red Cross up on her sleeve
Soooo Emotional and Warm and Gentle…
Natural...
Glaring Kindness
**I saw it in your eyes**
I simply cannot handle it
I am unable to process it
As Voice softens into a she-wolf's almost-weep-call
You tear me to pieces
You enter my essence
As vibrations touch my overkeen senses
Fears multiply
Is this a short circuit in my head?
For I know...
If I reach you I might somehow hurt you
If you discard me you might
Erase & ruin me -
Entirely & forever
If - if - if
Avoiding causing Pain
Avoiding being Hurt
Avoiding to Wish
Painfully Beautiful
It hurts so much!
My little presence blooms in silence
Hidden behind protective walls
...For a tiniest possibility
I should run as fast as I can
I should run away
But
I can't
I can't sleep
I can't think
I can't run
I can’t escape it
Can’t resist it
What should I do?
Why are you so Beautiful?
Why I had to see this?
Why?
Why? <Through almost desperate start of crying>
(I would hug you till death) <very silent, fade>
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DEMO in Progress !!!
Written predominantly probably as I remember since 10th to perhaps 15th of
March
This will probably need much more work.
Until my mind & eyes bleed…
Possibly I will carve in a few changes...
Still, here it is!
Another crazy one!
Excited? :))
Not?
I hope you’ll feel it for what it is!
If I'd be helluva smarter et al. - I would be able to get in and stay
Stay...
Beauty lies in your eyes
Oh I want...
Lips on the ti-ps
Lips so lightly on your soles
To barely touch them
Barely.
Barely is when you can’t say for sure if they touched them or not!
So close and so gentle
And that much is Waaaay Too Much!
My God my mood is such I’m gonna climb up to the top of the tallest tree here, and yell whatever comes on my mind - until you can hear it!
These awoken early spring bats must be day-sleeping up there too! Two of them, you know!!
I promise you – I’ve seen them flying!!!
LOL
As I’m putting it up on www my heart thumps like craaazy...
"Everything you do is simply kissable!
ReplyDeleteWhyyyy can't Iiiii bee youu?"
(The Cure - 'Why can't I be you?')
&
"Ja sada volim vješticu na metli
Sve druge žene sad za mene su rahmetli"
LoL
(Laka - ‘Vještica’)