40. Kim, do you want to? (Light Fairy tale for all the refugees from senselessness)

Here is a tiny song I wrote, you might want to read it note by note...

Funny how you decide to shorten a long song at least in half but then you easily extend it four times as long as it has been when you decided to cut it in half!? Hm... :O :D

Long live Rock and Roll!!

I had a Little Inspirational Rush!

Your Honor - I plead: Not guilty!

(Excuses are...oh...I had to add some, lose some and sum some...and...

...well...

...

Let us better start, shall we?)

(notice: 16 minutes and preferably more is needed for good read and understanding.)

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Kim, do you want to?

(Light Fairy tale for all the refugees from senselessness)

Do you want to?

Kim who do you really want to be?

Do you want to be a Heroine?

Do you have an irresistible crave for counseling the World?

Is your heart really good or in between...?

Learn everything you can about...

Great rock and roll female singers...

Learn everything you can...

Where are you from, Kim, really?

Who are you?

I've heard you could easily be from France or...Scotland?

But then again it could be also Croatia,

running through your veins?

Kim oh Kim...

How come you are so strange and yet so familiar?

Or am I wrong...

Have I only dreamt you?

Will you embrace the ''gift''?

Will you encourage the people?

Are you ready to make a sacrifice?

Even if it would try...

To led you to the martyrdom?

For how long we all have to wait?

To see the real you?

Unrestrained

After being, almost...

Barred for decades

See, I cannot sleep

I told you.

I whispered and I yelled

Early in the Sunday morning

(Like as if a

Little Light Angel put me here...)

To shake you to wake you up.

(I hope I didn't distress you that early morning) (*gentle voice)

Or just to find you

Read between the lines...

See what everyone chooses not to see.

Do you want to play the real game?

Are you a little "want-to-be" Savior?

Or are you here for the Money?

Did you start just for others to clap their hands for you?

Did you really!? :)

Or are you The Real Deal?

When will all the emotion pour out like dry-summer heavy rain?

Have you got the strength and the will?

To erase the pain?

Even if it cheats you!?

Even if all seemingly shall be in vain?

Many Good ones are gone into the Light

Or going towards...

Or so they say.

Maybe you still do not get it.

Or maybe you do.

Story is also about Them.

Is their tale good or bad?

Who chooses what's the right answer?

Martin asked: "Where's the Revolution..."

Universal picture

With tears

With joy

Universal like Space

Always

Or only up to some degree

Empathy...

Do you have empathy?

Do you hear me when I

Whisper?

Whisper...

Do you hear me when

I call your name?

Are you near me when

I'm near you?

Or are you going away?

Fads come and go

Always be your true self

Do not listen to me!

Be only who you need to be

I want to wake up someone

Like you

I want to know you

All is passing me by...

Only one kind can fascinate me

Do you understand?

I need to be around such people

Because they make me

Feel so good

But...

I can't wish for

I can't wish for

Too much if at all

It will crush me

If I am again wrong

I am just not that strong

And I also ponder around these...

Things...

Numerous things...

Do you know?

I am yet a tad to grow

And then I will (I hope so...)

Find someone for me

Just like you

Just like thee

At least...

I can dream

Can I?

(I pray so!)

(I always dreamt)

...

Are you sent? (*with lower voice)

One day, maybe...

If life permit

I will just...

Touch you

For a blazing split second

So tenderly and brief

Then you'll know

Who I am

No worry...

Don't worry...

Didn't I said?

(And you are still worried)

Like a kid afraid

And that touch alone

Could make me

So-oo happy

So, so, so...

I wouldn't dare

To touch you

At once

More than that

It would be

Too much Overwhelming

Never grow up

Never grow up!

Never get old

Always stay

Stay

Never be deluded...

I only started tickling you

To think profoundly

And later I will

If you misbehave

Maybe

Threaten too

With nettles

Like I usually do-oo ( :-) )

So good...

Are you really so sweet?

So kind...

Mmmmm...

I hope you're not

Wearing a mask!

Did she made me

Look your way?

(I was eager to see such...)

But now I really wonder

...

Because...Similar...

You two are so similar

If only I could know

How to charm you

How to disarm someone

As little as you

Then I'd be on the horse

Ha ha ha :)

...

It is easy for you

And hard for me

Shame on me!

It's already late

I'm already cooked and fried

I should've learned better

In life

But...

I never did!

Now, don't you laugh girl!

If you do the "wrong" step

I will throw you over my shoulder...

Easily

Alright?!

...

...

See that is why

I'm kissing her feet

Only...

Only up to her ankles

So softly

...

You may think...

"That's weird...

What is he suddenly

blabbing about!?"

Or maybe:

"Kinky strange

Is it kind of fetish...you know...

Is he derange-d!?"

But I'll tell you the Truth

Oh I will...

None of it is true

And mark my words

Mark them!

It's with utmost respect

Because

She is gone

Yes, She is gone!

Gone like the dead ones

Are gone

It is only Light now...

Can you feel it...?

Had I wish too much for

For her to be kind of reborn? (*with sadly voice)

"Why you had to go"

I asked....

"Why you couldn't stay awhile?"

I pleaded to her...

So she knows...

The two of you are so, so peculiarly similar

Aren't you?

But I can't wish for

You see

It will hurt me so ferociously

If I am wrong

But still I do

(Because you make me so

Overwhelmingly happy...)

I wait for someone

To whom I need not to say

A word

Or explain

She will sense it

Even from a far distance

Naturally

So sweet

Nothing to fight against

She will decide

And maybe

Only big... "maybe"

She'll do by miracle

By miracle...

...

She'll do Miracle

....

(And if one couldn't see

Then she simply wouldn't see...)

Can we all have what we want, Kim?

Can we all get what we are dreaming of?

Even if we do, for how long?

Spell some magic!

Dear girl

If you can

Repair this injustice

In the world

The strangest of all...

Loving her is - loving you (* "-" or "like")

Loving you is - loving her (* "-" or "like")

It is the same!

Sweet and sensitive

And...uncomplicated

Easy...

Old school

Old lifetime school

Like...Mountains are old

You are like Spring well

You are she

She is you

You are She is You

And it was an coincidence

I hadn't had a faintest clue

When I approached you

I swear

Or was it with other

yet unknown reason

Or was it because

of something what was

just due

Luckily...

I really hope so...

You are free of her pain

Uncorrupted, respectful, polite

Sweetly innocent

Loving is...

So effortless

(I heard what you said!

I instantly understood what you sincerely said!

Interlude, that night, there!)

And yet you are somehow afraid

And I say to You..

Hurting you is - hurting her (* "-" or "like")

Hurting her is - hurting you (* "-" or "like")

Much more we must learn

There is so much to reveal

I need to love someone

So why not you and her?

Whatever you do I'll still mostly have to be the same.

Either that or to die

And if I die by any chance

Now you know where and why I'll come by! :)

(I can sense your tough hands

play about on my chest

Where my heart is...

What are you doing?

Or am I deluded?

Is that someone else?)

Light

You are she

She is you

You are She is You

Kim your palms are on my heart

What are you trying to achieve?

Oh well...

...

(I may be wrong...)

...

And maybe you also

Didn't get it thoroughly

...

I don't want to end like her

So, so, so many ended like her

Be it the exact reason - this or that

And many more will

Can't you see?

Even now, the other day...

Poor man Keith hanged himself in his lonely house (*if not true: "hanged" then "killed")

Alone, abandoned, in sorrow and despair.

And he was running more than healthy

Only few days before

But without his lost pair

It is so sad...

(I am so sorry to ask, but...

Are you caring Kim?

Or are you selfish and vain?

...

And what can I say - about me?

Ah...)

There are no guarantees

We can't see the future!

(It frightens me to death)

It is the greatest pain of all

"Lack of Love

And

Misfortune"

That is why...

That is why

I kiss her bare feet

For a redemption...

For a deepest sorrow...

To ease the pain...

For the love of life!...

(And so many things more...)

That is why I whisper and send...

"I Love You" (*gently voice)

(To her Soul)

That is why...

I know...

I know...

I said too much

But near to nothing

...

(Someone...

Green eyes and Green

Do you know what I mean?)

What do you think

Can we ever get

Ever, ever get

Anything more valuable

Anything more expensive

Anything greater

Than Sincere Blinding Love?

You could know...

I knew a girl long ago

Then I discovered

She was married

But still she was addressed

With her maiden name, sometimes

Therefore...

I thought inappropriate to watch her picture

Daily on my computer screen background

And she was so pink sweet

On a green meadow offering her hand...

(Was she calling?

What was she trying to say?)

Years later I discovered hidden truths.

Later in life her husband dumped her

Or she left because...

Things between them didn't get along...

Or she was so ill that she had to go!?

She was so severely wounded and lost...

Oh...why am I telling you...

I don't know...

That was her...

(It ripped my soul to pieces) (*with sad trembling voice)

Only many years later I pondered on that same picture

From my computer screen

(Was she calling?

What was she trying me to say?)

And Kim

Kim oh Kim

Did you heard what she said?

Why she said those words?

Why...?

From the past...

It emerged only recently

Ringing so heavenly now

Comforting and angelic sweet...

...

And then I saw you

And...

And now I see you!

And...

How could I explain...

What else can I say?

Kim partially had a bad luck - she failed to score

I had a good stroke of Light luck - I found Kim!

Kim is afraid

Me too...

Now we are both waiting...

Can we just for a start hug from afar and be quiet?

And see what will happen...

Have you forgotten already

About me?

Kim, where have you now gone?

Who are you?

Who are you!?

Kim, do you want to?

(I hope you understand...) (*with lower voice)

...

...

...

(Ahhh...Are you still sleeping? :O )

(Written between 18.2.2019 - 10.3.2019)
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